i be your PRINCESS

2009-02-13T14:04:00.003+08:00

tomorrow is valentine's day.

but i doubt everything wont be same.

how i hope that this year would be a memorable one.

but, so sad to say that.

even tommorrow how hard i tried,

you still wont come back.

cause, simple. feelings is not there anymore.

its takes 2 hands to clap.

so, i cannot be selfish i have to let him go.

even i really do love him alot.

but what troubles me the most is,

i have to act like it doesnt even HURT.

cause, people will look at me and say.

omg, jacq. cry i dont want to be like that.

to people, i am strong jacq.

only i can scold people.

people cannot scold me.

only i bully people,

people cannot bully me.

right? even closest brother hj&vic saw me cry,

they choose to look away and pretend they never saw.

cause they know how i feel.

thanks lots bros.

and no matter how hurt it is i am going to stay strong.

iloveyou, that what i am going to say for the last time.

if things could turn back, i wont choose to hurt you and love you whole-heartly only.

but now, it wont. =D

in a relationship cannot have a 3 party.

there must be always one to sacrifise.

this time, i will.

iloveyou, so i let you go with the girl you like.

i hope tommorrow you will enjoy.

alright, this will be the last time i post in this blog.

i am going to change my link.

=D will update you guys.

2009-02-10T09:38:00.002+08:00

after so long, i am still alone.

no one knows what i am thinking.

even my best buddies.

sometimes i wonder, should i really give up?

or should i try and perservere?

no one tells me what to do,

inside my heart, is all tearing apart.

perhaps, after a long period of time it will heal.

but, i dont want to give up.

it may seems easy to fall for other people.

but, not me.

i am not those kind of people.

i am using the very last strength of breath i have,

to fight it out.

on valenines day.

will be my last shot,

if it still wont touched you,

i will give up.

1 year 9 months and going to 1 year 1o months.

2009-02-01T14:51:00.006+08:00

this is our memories.

i dont know if we still have a chance together.

but i guess, we probably wont have this chance together anymore.

i dont know why, i thought it be easy to forget you.

but, now i notice that, its difficult.

alot of people have broke up this few days.

i still hope i can have you back.

but, do i still have this last chance to let you love me back?

and go back to what we still used to be?

valentines day is around the corner.

i guess, i have no one to celebrate with anymore.

my mind and everything is all mixed up.

all confused.

i hope everything can turn back to what it all used to be.

playing on the bus,

listening song together.

beat each other.

fun times like those time.

but not those quarreling times.

if time can change back,

i will change to become a better girlfriend.

but, i guess, it wont anymore?

2009-01-31T12:02:00.002+08:00

i hate people to take away things that i have

and things i love.

but, just some reason.. people always change.

hahas, just like earth.

revolving round and around.

non-stop.

so people will change.

therefor, i decided.

to change back what i used to be.

heh..

2009-01-30T14:08:00.000+08:00

如果有一天　
我回到從前
回到最原始的我
　你是否會覺得我不錯
如果有一天
　我離你遙遠
不能再和你相約
　你是否會發覺我已經說再見
當你的眼睛瞇著笑
　當你喝可樂當你吵
我想對你好
　你從來不知道
　想你想你
　也能成為嗜好
當你說今天的煩惱
　當你說夜深你睡不著
我想對你說
　卻害怕都說錯
　好喜歡你　
知不知道如果有一天
　夢想都實現回憶都成了永遠　
你是否還會記得今天如果有一天
　我們都發覺
原來什麼都可以　
我們是否還會停留在這裡
當你的眼睛瞇著笑　
當你喝可樂當你吵
我想對你好　你從來不知道　
想你想你　
也能成為嗜好當你說今天的煩惱　
當你說夜深你睡不著我想對你說
　卻害怕都說錯　好喜歡你
　知不知道也許空虛讓我想得太多　
也許該回到被窩夢裡會相遇　
就毫不猶豫　
大聲的說我要說當你的眼睛瞇著笑　
當你喝可樂當你吵我想對你好　
你從來不知道　想你想你　
也能成為嗜好啦～　啦～我想對你說　
卻害怕都說錯　好喜歡你　
知不知道啦～　啦～

dang ni- cyndi wang xin ling

2009-01-30T13:30:00.002+08:00

i guess, as times goes.

perhaps people feeling will change too.

i dont know, i am confused at what i am doing now.

studying is my first pirority i know.

i know, but. he is also my first pirority.

he is the main reason that i really study for.

but now, i dont know what i am doing.

lol, i feel very stress.

haized, teachers said i can make it for O level.

but, can i really make up to the standard?

i feel very stupid at times.

like, teacher explain so many times.

i still dont understand,

then until i see teacher face abit dulan.

then pretend okay, i understand le teacher.

i feel abit fake, i dont know why.

haized, then as for relationship?

keep kena cheated by boyfriend.

be it boyfriend or ex boyfriend.

i guess, i am forever this stupid.

only clever at doing stupid things.

like, beat people.

scold people.

right? hahas, really very funny.

2009-01-29T20:01:00.001+08:00

long time since i post already.

angeline and co said my blog is dead.

lol, today i quarrelled with him.

lol, everything sound so fcuking ridiculous lorh,

i dotn know what he want to do lah.

knn, crazy.

this week perhaps going to lao yu sheng

with hongjie, victor and co.

lol.. post up pictures soon.

2009-01-21T15:06:00.003+08:00

'' It doesn't matter who dumped who or why.

Whenever we see an ex with another girl,

it always bothers us.

Not because we're not over you,

but because we know that we used to be that girl. ''

quoted from angeline's blog.

i find this quite interesting&&true.

okay, i dont know what i am thinking.

&& i am very vexed up with myself.

i know i just cant let go.

but, i inisisted on letting it go.

well, okay nothing more.

i wont be blogging so often anymore.

2009-01-20T10:11:00.002+08:00

i dont know what more to say anymore.

this relationship.

lol, crazy. really crazy.

read this month de teenage.

i am abit afraid of what the horoscope says.

haized, i dont know. now i am speechless.

i guess, now, we both wont contact each other.

&& tml i can confirm,

he wont find or call me.

&& defineltely i am not in the wrong.

so i wont find or call him.

=D haized.

2009-01-13T10:12:00.002+08:00

back to blogging!

4 periods of home econs, i am like so cold lorh.

well, today hongjie, victor and co never come school.

only lau came school to pei me.

so good lorh.

hope they come school faster,

if not no one pei me study,

lau pei me all the way today,

later going recess le.

&&bibi is not feeling well.

&&he's stomach pain again.

i guess this week, have to bring him or drag him to see the doc's.

stupid him right?

nevermind, as a girlfriend must make sure he's alright.

unlike him, dont care about me one!

2009-01-12T10:00:00.003+08:00

currently having my f&n.

well, its like so scary now.

as, i just got the 'N' level F&N coursework.

&& date due is august.

but miss tan wants us to hand in by july.

maybe to you all, like wah, 6 months also cannot finish meh?

so exagerating, but coursework need to do alot of thing leh.

i really need to buck up!

i cannot afford to lose any lesson,

today i fall asleep in chinese class awhile.

alright, back to my coursework.

i got to go!

2009-01-11T11:50:00.002+08:00

currently i am at cousin house,

as my cousin is getting married.

lol, feel happy for her you know,

like 1 of my cousin is married,

1 more member in the family. so heartwarming.

lol, alright, i am here to blog about yesterday.

yesterday, bibi celebrated my birthday for me!

its was like so so so fun lah.

i was really really touched by what he did for me.

super duper duper touched.

there were like 20 plus people over there.

its was like one of my most memorable birthday la.

classmates were there, brothers were there, my friends are there too!

seriously, i am happy

but, in between there are somethings that make me no mood,

which i dont which to say out,

but, after that.

everything is fine!

when they open the cake,

i was like, OMG the cake is so pretty.

i will post up the birthday cake soon.

then after that, talked cock awhile,

slacked around, then went home.

&& currently, i am looking for a phone.

a phone which can last me for quite a time.

but, i dont know what phone to choose,

and plus i am only interested in NOKIA phone.

so, anyone have any idea?

lol, okay, perhaps for now.

i end here?

okay, i be back real soon!

2009-01-05T10:20:00.002+08:00

okay, well i am currently i am at school.

having my F&N.

well, schools not fun as i thought today.

i dont know why, everythings that i do today.

makes me remind of HIM.

just can't forget he lied to me, seriously.

dont know whats happening to this relationship.

yesterday had a girls talk with jiemin&&cassandra.

talked mostly about relationship problems.

well, my relationship problem most jialat.

feel like crying, yesterday threw the blue bear one side.

&& hugged ariel&&triton to sleep.

woke up today, wondering will he come fetch me outside?

or maybe he realised his mistake?

but, he didn't come.

okay, i admit i am abit dissapointed.

because he once promise me,

even we quarrel he will also be there to fetch me.

but, never.

today was a moody day for me.

no mood to do anything.

feelings not right, every where i went seems to have memories with him.

very difficult, went to school with

fiona, tze hui&&sangetha took bus 854

all the way to bedok.

well, okay.

i shall end here&& continue to work on my coursework.

JACQ. is gonna work hard for this year for her 'N' levels.

&& to win everyone result.

&&everyone.

1o more days to my BIRTHDAY!

2009-01-04T11:28:00.003+08:00

okay, guess what?

he lied to me.

yes, he lied AGAIN. cause he promise to meet.

but end up? playing dota like one kind.

funniest part? he said is his brother friend using his account to play,

thats so freaking funny.

made me wake up at 7.3o blast his phone.

till 11 plus then give up.

cause i saw he was playing dota.

seriously, i cant take it anymore.

since games is more important, fine then.

i got nothing to say then.

i am really mad at him, but yet. i am very cool down.

perhaps this time, my heart really had enough of waiting for him and so on.

i dont know how to describe my mixed feelings now.

birthday is another 11 more days.

hope everyone could help me to countdown.

but, i dont think i be celebrating my birthday.

cause i find it no more meaning.

2009-01-03T22:11:00.002+08:00

back to blogging!

today went shopping with boyf. to shop for new year clothes.

bought 1 dress that cost me $49.

which is quite pretty lah, like princess haha~

then a top from topshop. which cost me $49 also.

now, i am left with 1 more suit, a skirt, 2 pair of shoes.

1 bag&& the guess bag that bibi owe me!

lol, hahas~
but i doubt he will get it for me soon,

actually, i want to get it faster cause, i scared later no more stock.

i will cry like hell mans!

hahas, sibei sian lorh.

&& bibi caught another bear for me le.

you know my ariel&&triton.

lol, think only my hostel people&&bibi know only.

i got another blue one!

bibi said treat it as him.

lol, got 3 bear bear le.

wondering, why dont have 4 bear, then we make a whole family le.

ariel, triton,hubby&&honey.

hahas~

shall update the photo soon..

2009-01-02T18:48:00.002+08:00

back for homeleave again.

guess what? before coming back to gracehaven.

uncle.raymond was hopping mad!

omg, that is so scary, though he did like make jokes or something.

but, he way he say things very scary.

okay, so guess what?

he gave us warnings, like, i start from the first one.

1st, smoking cause from the effect of 1 of jan alot of place cant smoke.

so, he warned those smokers, saying that if there is ever someone caught smoking or

given warning, his or her homeleave will be cut for 1 month.

luckily for me!!

2nd, attire, appropriate hairstyle, no ankle socks and so on.

3rd, homeleave no going out with gracehaven people.

4th, bully of new girls or any bullying things. as uncle raymond say he take this

SERIOUSLY, anyone who found bullying of anyone in any block,

he will not hestiate to breach that person.

sound scary right?

okay, guess what? me&&boyf. quarrel again, this time is not i over-sensitive.

is he really too much, i suddenly find out that,

perhaps, we are not meant for each other.

you know what? he can even call me a lok kuay.

which is like cheap prosititue infront of alot of people.

how will you feel if your boyf. calls you that?

infront of the public& your friends?

seriously, i dont understand.

&& the things he does, make me feel like i am not wanted in this relationship.

like, i dont know what to say.

perhaps only he will have the answer.

i really very confuse,

can we really last?

please let me feel it can you ?

birthday is coming, 13 more days.

i hope to get my guess bag for my birthday present, but i dont think so.

2008-12-31T23:16:00.004+08:00

woohoo, bibi promise me to buy me a GUESS bag!

hahas and perhaps a guess wallet too.

total will be around 2oo plus.

but i am not sure when will he get me the items.

hope it be fast! hahas!!

LOL~ i really love the GUESS bag alot.

&& its him who made my wishes came thru!

iloveyou bibi!!!

2008-12-30T20:40:00.010+08:00

when i say go, i dont mean what i say.
when i say go, please stay by my side till i am cooled down.
but now, to you does it even matter? i doubt no.

why does this sweet memories,

bring tears to me?

2008-12-30T14:28:00.000+08:00

well, got back from gracehaven not long ago today.
well, receive alot of present.
coolness, i even got a mermaid doll!!
hahas, kinda cute.
but fiona&&alot of people say very children.

got a perfume from the boys bridage.

&& a bear something like build a bear,

but its not, got passport&&birth cert.

hahas, cuteness right?
&& still got goodies bag, inside alot of thing lorh.
like for pig, though i am fat la.
but, really alot leh.
hahas!! okay.
shall post up the photo now.

2008-12-29T16:47:00.006+08:00

lazy to say out,
so well, this is what we did on saturday.
suppose to be celebrating my anniversary,
but, didnt due to some problems.
okay, the pics here are quite cute!
haha, gimboon&&bi gone mad.
dont know what they doing,
they have their own private mtv.
hahas, post up soon.
running out of time.
&& guess what?
bi, extend his hair, cute right!
oh ya, there are some pic which is on thursday.

2008-12-25T01:58:00.007+08:00

yay! it's christmas eve, everyone.

so, we went to celebrate.

we went k-ster.

cecilia&&dave was there, cassandra&&gimboon was there.

jiaxin&&johnathan,jiemin was there&& last but not the least me&&boyf.

lol, had lots of fun there.

took pictures too.

lazy to rant, i have to replenish my energy for tomorrow christmas.

&& on this friday.

me&&hubby might make tang yuan together.

belows are the pics, that i took today.

enjoy readers!

2008-12-24T00:16:00.002+08:00

lately have been quarreling with boyf.

cause of his dont-care attitude.

&& my over-sensitive attitude toos.

but, seriously.

which girlf , can tahan his boyf.

look at other girls?

not long ago we just talked things out.

hope this time, things will get better.

&& i wont be so sensitive,

tomorrow is christmas eve!

omg, i can't wait.

it's my 2nd year of christmas with him.

though this month we are broke.

but, i am definetly going to give you a big present?

hehehehe.

okay, bi.

this is for you.

i really sorry for what i have said that hurt you.

i am sorry, i know you try to give me things that i want,

like the wallet. to you, it might be nice.

but, i dont like it.

i know i am too straight-forward just now.

so i apologize for what i have said.

i am sorry.

after much thinking&& everything i decided.

to use the wallet, cause is you who gave that wallet to me,

other than me, who else can use that wallet.

no matter nice or what, it is still a present from you to me.

hence, no matter how other say about this wallet i will still use it.

cause, to me its not just gift.

but, its just a ....

i dont know how to put it =/

okay, i hope this will delight your day.

i love you.

2008-12-22T18:49:00.001+08:00

depressed.

what more to say?

i feel like dying, find no reason to live on.

haiz, people that i trust.

kept lying to me!

2008-12-20T00:44:00.002+08:00

hello people, i am back to blog.

haized, i guess today will be a memorable day for me&&hubby.

i dont want to elaborate much.

as its not a good thing or a happy thing to share,

anw, went out with

hubby, cassandra, cecilia,jiemin and of course me too.

we went jurong, after that to boon keng.

waited for their boyf.

yanting came down too.

me, cecilia, jiemin&& cassandra have fun time taking photo.

lol, but the photo is not with me yet.

so i shall post the photo when i got it all.

&& i am getting sick.

feverish, sore throat etc ..

i hope i get well soon.

&& guess what?

hubby && me took quite alot of lame photo just now toos.

hahas, lastly.

i finally know, who are MY true friends.

iloveyou girls.

darling f4 hahas.

&& last but not the least.

my precious boyf.

2008-12-08T12:33:00.002+08:00

thanksgiving is just 4 days away.

christmas is just 17 days away.

&& my birthday is just 38 days away.

how i hope that my birthday for this year will be

a very memorable one.

but i doubt it wont be.

if life were to repeat again.

i promise i wont do any foolish things that hurt myself.

&& be truthful to my own feeling.

what i really want&& what i really dont want.

i will have a say in everything i do.

&& wont get to the mess i have now.

i hate the life that i am going through now.

so i have to change!

i changing to who i want myself to be,

but not what others want me to be.

alright, i got to watch my show now.

bye people.

2008-12-01T10:02:00.002+08:00

hello, this post is for a special someone who accompanied me through

the DARKEST DARKEST SIDE OF MY LIFE.

that person is none other than

'' CECILIA LIEW JIA YI ''

keai, thanks for being there when i needed you the most.

i really really appreciate it alot.

hahas, i guess other than cassandra&&you.

no other people can replace you both.

&& congratualation keai for going up to independent.
i going up in february, hope by that time we wont drift.

friends forever keai, till we discharge we will also be the bestest KEAI.

right? =D

2008-11-16T12:56:00.002+08:00

lost of word.

nothing left to say.

black &&white.

i swear upon i never forgive you for the rest of my life.

&& i will do it.

i never ever forgive you!

my heart was suppose to be left untouched

so that it would not break into pieces.

but.....

now, i am speechless.

2008-11-11T12:17:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY my HUBBY.

today is his actually birthday.

LOL, he is offically 19 le.

well, i did help him to celebrate his birthday

&& guess what.

he is happy&& touched.

i called down victor&co.

and suppose korkor&&jiejie should also come but never.

cause jiejie working.

thats why.

but, gary,wilson&&steve came down.

=D its really a pleasant surprise you know.

hahas, i thought the food wasnt enough.

but end up it was more than enough.

we still have 1 big bag of chicken wings.

1and a half bag of uncooked otah.

what a waste, only if hubby&&me are free man.

we would be having much much fun.

right? lol, iloveyou man.

&& lastly

happy birthday to you.

happy birthday to hubby.

happy birthday to you.

2008-10-28T15:14:00.002+08:00

i dont know why, this have come to such end that.

i am about to break down soon.

my boyfriend&&my best friend.

why must such a things happen to me?

LOL~! i am laughing so loud now that my heart hurts.

still thought that he would be the one whom will accompany me along

the way from now on.

but i was wrong, those scars.

those hurts, is too much for me.

why must i go thru this?

when i did nothing wrong?

i am running away from the reality that i dont want to admit.

2008-10-28T13:16:00.003+08:00

everything is gone.

and perhaps is a good thing?

or perhaps its not?

i really dont know.

confused de me, stupid de me.

always got cheated by others,

fine,perhaps everything got its own decision.

and this could be the ending of it.

okay, once again after 1 year 6months and 2 days.

i am single.

okay, let me get to the point.

i am looking for a new boyfriend&&my ideal boyfriend

should be tiongxim to me.

never compare me to other girls.

never leave me alone.

have to tolerate my nonsense&&fucking attitude

love me more than he love anyone else.

cannot hong.

&& lastly, NEVER EVER FALL IN LOVE WITH MY SISTERS!

if you are 1 of those please leave a text in my tagboard.

thanks.

2008-10-20T11:15:00.003+08:00

oh well, back to blogging.

currently in school.

school bored this few days.

&& i guess i am going to fall sick soon.

miss tan said i look pale.

i was like HUH PALE?!?!

wasnt just feeling too well this few days.

yesterday went back to gh at 2.

cause of misbehaving in praise&&worship last week and

defiance towards staff.

got lots to rant. but suddenly i remember i cant rant out now.

lol, shall make my blog private first.

pictures will ONLY be updated when blog is private.

thanks for the cooperation.

&& btw i sort of quarrel with him.

cause he said he wanna meet me.

in the end tua me. wth,

dont want to meet then say dont want.

dont need to tua de.

what ever.

i am super irritated NOW.

2008-10-18T22:25:00.002+08:00

hello peeps,

i have a important things to tell all my readers.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

give me your emails so that you be able to

see my blog.

as there is somethings going on.

thats why i am making my blog private.

dont misunderstood.

not because of the spammer.

oh, bad girl if you happen to see this,

please give down your email too.

&& btw peeps.

email is blogger de email.

not your hotmail.

thanks. =D

2008-09-21T13:03:00.003+08:00

yesterday went out with boyf.

we went to beach && romantic.

hahas. took some pictures.

but not nice.

shall post up some later,

lol, guess what?

i just came back from swimming with boyf.

my hair is super damn dry.

LMAO.

lol, dont have the mood leh.

how? lol, okay lah.

i shall stop here first.

2008-09-15T08:44:00.002+08:00

Fall For You - Secondhand Serenade

2008-09-14T16:37:00.002+08:00

seashells, dolphins, starfish.

all this things may look very nice&& pretty right?

but to me it beholds a important memories.

&& now,

i am think of going back?

its like...

i dont know how to say.

baby, you know.

you are my biggest strength.

but, now i could no longer depend on you.

why? can you tell me?

izzit only when i go back,

then you will care for me?

or izzit things just arent the same?

baby, do tell me what you want.

i am tearing apart soonnn.

2008-09-13T22:25:00.001+08:00

hello back to blog

celebrated vanilla birthday for her.

keai && me gave her a surprise.

which almost made her cry i guess?

right? hahas. && heres a video of her.

as i promise. iloveher.

2008-09-11T12:36:00.002+08:00

its not easy being me do you know that?

i am not what i used to be do you know?

i love you once more than i love other of my ex do you know?

i bet all of this above. you dont know anything.

why do i love such a guy like you?

everything is over.

everything is offically over.

totally over.

goodbye my love.

everything just end within here and today.

well, i dont know why.

my tears just flowed down automactically.

i dont feel like going to school tomorrow.

everything in my mind is just corrupted.

i just needed a time of my own.

i think i will cry to sleep tonight.

everything in my mind is all about him.

but, i dont know why.

it just changed from today onwards.

i dont know why.

it will no longer be the same.

break up seems cruel.

even though i was the one who intially the break up.

i cant give it up.

but, i guess.

its easier to give up now.

because no one will get hurt after that.

perhaps everything that happen now,

is a karma.

dont you think so?

alright. just as i guessed it.

we wont last long.

260407 is no longer the same.

&& there wont be another 260407.

everything ended at

11/9/08 12.35

2008-09-11T08:22:00.002+08:00

hello, i am back to blogging.

teehee. this few days have been sleeping early.

&& is super early. 7 plus i go sleep le.

to prevent my brain from thinking anything.

&& plus i am really so damn tired.

haized.

oh no, suddenly i feel like i lost alot of things?

like my courage? my old self?

for now, i just hope that.

my friends will be there for me when i need them the most.

although i know that sometimes i wll pang seh them.

i am sorry thou,

but i just feel that when there is problem.

first think i will think of is friends.

i dont know why.

haized. i am really very stress of what i am doing.

i am so not sure what i am doing now && typing now.

i just feel like ranting it all out at my blog.

&& my ear is so damn itchy now.

its like so super reddish now?

haized, how i hope i could sleep in a long long long sleep now.

i really dont want to think of anything.

esp relationship.

nothing could save this relationship anymore.

i dont want to save this relationship anymore.

i got no strength left to continue this relationship.

its too tough.

really very tough.

its like i am the only one trying to salvage the relationship.

but he is not doing anything.

oh no, what am i talking?

didnt i promise not to say anything?

fine. i dont want to talk about this topic anymore.

oh ya, miss tan is trying to hai me again.

my report in school is not good.

sleeping in class, not in class blah blah.

&& she say she wants to call for a court review.

&& want to extend my stay in hostel.

wah lao eh, i go in partly is also because of school.

now she want to hai me.

wa lao eh, if she think is nice to sit inside.

well, try yourself.

no freedom, no nothing.

lost EVERYTHING inside.

no one will care how you feel.

whenever i am stress nothing can be done or do.

cant drink or whatever.

suddenly i feel like going to clubbing this week?

whoever could bring me go?

i really needed this day.

to pour out my sorrow and everything.

haized.

i am confused.

so confused.

i want dont want to get suspended or get extended.

i want to go out faster.

alt friday is waiting for me.

if anyone get to spoil my chance going to alt friday,

you watch out.

i dont care what will happen,

i will just do things without thinking.

alright.

enough of ranting.

i am sick and tired.

i guess i stop here.

if from the beginning we did not met each other;

will we regret for what ever it happen?

will we be happier?

will things become better?

if our love was a fairytale.

will it be happily ever after?

or saddily ever after?

2008-09-07T19:36:00.002+08:00

oh great, everthing is OVER.

finally is over.

i am going to still get on with my life.

i will, this time.

there is nothing left not to put down i guess.

we left each other without looking back.

so everything ended,

just ended peacefully.

i dont want to cling on to something like that anymore.

its tiring.

&& no one knows what i want.

how i feel and everything.

why is this so ?

i am not sure.

everything just seems so diffrent.

alright, i am super tired.

&& just updating.

yesterday was GH big day.

its their family carnival.

wooohh, i am in charge of ice kachang.

lol, me, camillia, esther&&cassandra.

play play play.

&& i guess we sold quite alot.

because we left with no topping.

thats why we close our ice kachang early.

WEETS.

its was quite fun && he came down to give me support.

hahas. but its over.

nah, its okay.

i am going to be fine.

so okay.

homeleave is from yesterday all the way until monday.

shiok siol.

alright i am really tired.

due to helping ahma to cook.

oh, i almost forgot.

next week is first friday.

alright i am super tired.

if i ask you to stay;

will you stay and be with me all day ?

if i ask you to leave ;

will you really leave and not come back?

if i tell you ILOVEYOU;

will you tell me that you love me?

2008-08-25T08:13:00.002+08:00

alright back to blogging.

internet connection coruppted, so could not use.

so now in school blog. hahas.

saturday went out with hubby.

&& when i see my phone only,

wahh, FUCKING BITCH this word.

everywhere in message.

sibei dulans.

but calm down and called him.

&& to my surprise.

he talked properly.

he said meet me at bedok.

lol, then i tell him i go prepare&& he must reach there before me.

guess what he say?

okay, but dont make me wait so long.

lol, i super happy.

i dont know why, just because of this message.

i faster reply, then go down bedok.

lol, hahas.

&& guess what. we never quarrel for the whole day.

coolness right?

i know. hahas.

sunday went rebond hair.

cool, did my hair everything is done.

sleep for awhile.

&& he tua me.

say want go watch movie. talk cocks.

but, i never blame him.

cause something happen. but i find him selfish at times.

haized.&& lastly

iloveyou BABYBOY.

2008-08-20T09:18:00.002+08:00

to reply your tag,

i will wait, thats all.

i really will, i know, you dont believe.

you said, if you were to forget me.

will i like other guys.

my answer is yes.

because you have forgetten me.

but, i wont find another guy who love me so much

&& care me so much.

there wont be a second you.

which means, you'll never be replaced.

but, what do you know?

you will always say i very violent.

when we quarrel, you will say i dont know la,

SHE CRAZY.

well, thats hurting but, you dont know.

haized. i really dont know.

how about when i really do care about you and when i really love you?

did you even notice it?

have you even tell me things like

thank honey for what ever you have done?

haiz, i really dont know.

deep down i dont wish to break.

but is just you, who make me feel left out in this relationship.

the feeling that you gave me now.

make me feel very lonely.

not like last time, so pastionate.

why is this so?

ILOVEYOU, i really do mean it.

but what about you?

bottom line,

i still love you.

i wait for you no matter what.

even if we were to break&& never patch.

i know, there wont be a second you.

&& the feeling with you,

with never be replace by others.

thats all.

ILOVEYOU

2008-08-18T08:53:00.002+08:00

hmm, i am lost for words.

perhaps, if you really go inside.

you will only then realise.

that, who treats you really good.

&& regret what ever you have done.

i really hope everything start afresh.

like how we knew each other,

how we start giving kiss to each other.

how we hug each other.

how we make faces to make each other happy.

how we play like a

CRAZY COUPLE.

&& things like that.

well, i dont know why things seems so hard for me.

yesterday, he fetch me back hostel.

on the way, i asked him.

bi, what if i go in girls home?

he asked me to shhhh..

then i kept asking him.

after awhile, he reply.

i will wait for you, dont worry.

well, i hope is true.

but deep down i know that,

this word, i can only hear but not believe.

&7 he ask me back.

what if he go in?

(if he go in this time will be for15 months.)

then i played the song i'll remember you.

he asked, why you play the song?

i said because i felt like playing this song.

i dont want to reply his question because.

i know that i will wait.

because i really do love him.

but i dont want him to take it as i am talking cocks.

so i didnt reply and didnt tell him i will wait.

but no matter how long.

i promise that, i will wait.

i promise, though you dont treat me well like last time.

but still i love you alot.

i know perhaps you dont love me anymore.

but, you cant stop me from loving you.

even if you go in. i promise,

if you write letter to me.

i will reply you.

i promise.

but if you wish to forget me.

fine, i will just wait.

thats all. && dont need to fetch me anymore.

because i know, you will never fetch me.

&& dont promise me anything.

2008-08-13T09:36:00.002+08:00

well, i think you didnt hear me correctly.

i said, i let you play when i am not with you.

monday,tuesday,wednesday, thursday&friday

can play, saturday cannot.

sunday when i go back hostel.

can play right.

just one day only.

just to accompany me.

also cannot.

fine, this relationship i doubt will not last long.

all thanks to those game creator.

i really hate it. i really do.

haized. i really feel confused.

at what to do.

patch this word?

i decided not to take it lightly.

patch this word.

to me now, is future.

i have to think of future.

will he neglect me?

everything?

will he love me?

will he really treasure me this time?

will we really wont quarrel so much?

will we?

will we last?

if i were to change for you will i regret?

i really very confuse.

after you finish and clearing your mind you tell me.

i dont mind patching.

its just that, i really have to think of the future.

thats all. haized.

i feel confused.

you think thru bah.

2008-08-12T14:53:00.002+08:00

okay, its like my feeling is so mixed up now.

i am so sad, why?

cause i broke up with him. yes, i broke up with

ahsong.

because games is important to him.

i asked him, if he were to choose.

game or me.

he choosed game. i am not surprise.

because i know he really likes games.

&& of course i know, i cant compare to his games.

i am just like a nobody lorh.

right?

well, perhaps.

letting go is really better.

because i know he cant possibly wont play games.

now i know where the problem occur,

why we quarrel. because of games.

he neglect me because of games.

everything he did, is just for games.

thats why.

i got nothing to say,

i got to pack up my mood and perhaps

start afresh?

who knows?

i am going to be stong.

i will tell myself not to cry.

2008-08-08T22:08:00.002+08:00

i really am confused

confused of what to do nowadays.

i really dont know,

it just seems like, i am very stress. yup, very stress.

i dont know why. i dont know what i am stress for.

perhaps relationship?

perhaps, my family?

perhaps, school?

perhaps, hostel?

or perhaps, myself?

i have been wondering, what happen to me nowadays?

why cant i be happy when i feel like i want to?

everything just seems like,

somebody is take control of my body.

i have no one to vent out this anger.

seriously, i am really stress.

i cant shared it with my boyfriend.

because, i will get stucked at what i will be saying.

&& i am afraid that i will vent out my anger on him.

&& that will lead us to a quarrel.

i really dont know what to do.

even if i were to share with him,

he wont have the patient to listen to what i will say to him.

&& he will either say,

dont think too much.

aiya, wont de lah.

i really dont know, i feel very confuse.

like, 1 week i can only meet you 1 day which is on saturday.

yet, you still dont understand.

you yourself also say what.

if you really really fcuking miss me.

then you will come fetch me to school,

if not you wont.

what kind of thing is that?

what kind of word is that?

i know lah, to you it might be sat to say this kind of word infront of

YOUR FRIENDS.

but to me, you dont know what kind of feelings it will be.

because, you are not girl.

you dont know how i feel,

thats why when i am sad. you cant feel it.

dont you think that you are very selfish?

you kept saying i am selfish.

YES! i am selfish.

but at least i know what i want!

you say you fetch me whn you really miss me.

okay. then can you think for me?

how about when i really really miss you?

how about when i want you to fetch me?

what kind of same excuse you give me?

you think what? i really that lame to ask you come fetch me?

i can seriously tell you.

we are drifting apart, its true.

cause you no longer feel how much my heart hurts when you said those words.

&& frankly speaking, i feel that my friend knows me better

than you!

and ask yourself, why i suddenly will write diary?

because i feel that, no one really can listen to what i want to say.

&& what my heart want to say.

only my diary can quietly let me finish writing it all out,

without making any comment.

&& the only thing that i can say it out to.

&& no one knows only the 2 of us.

but do you notice it?

you dont.

perhaps, i am just a toy to you.

perhaps bah,

times goes people change.

2008-08-04T08:51:00.002+08:00

oh well, reported the whole incident to ms tan already.

ms tan asked me to print out the web page.

or her blog.

luckily i print it out already.

beacuse, she blocked her blog already.

lol, dont know what she scared of.

&& some people came my blog and spam.

lol, dont know who is that.

lol, she also dont dare to put her fcuking name.

lol, its very lame lor,

dont like me say to my face lah,

come my blog and spam, like i know who are you like that. irritating lor.

hahas , anw, thanks bi.

for helping me to scold.

but really,

there is no need to tag back and give your number all this.

not worth it.

okay?

we just live our own life, dont care those lame people.

okay? okay end of post.

byebye people.

loves you a tons.

and happy spamming.

2008-08-02T00:12:00.002+08:00

hohoho!

people check out this website alright?

www.sotonggiirl.blogspot.com

woah, i still didnt know she ka my jiao wei,

until i check out her post.

cause in school people who are close with me should know about me&& her thing.

she said i STOLE her phone.

yes, yes! STEAL her phone.

&& want to know who is the SHE i am refering?

she is none other than,

TEO HUIWEN.

check out her blog alright?

oh ya, is at the april 2008 that kinda post.

april 3 and 4.

in case she delete her post.

i have already printed it out.

guess what she said?

she said that nowadays i dont dare to talk to her?

maybe i am too shameless to face her.

&& she said that i am feeling gulity.

oh no, i do feel gulity.

but not for me.

but for her.

because she dont know, i can sue her,

oh no. how god damn stupid can this person be?

oh well, its just a small kids perhaps.

&& she said, fcuk your whole family upside down.

she said about my family.

its like wtf cans?

i going to report to the police.

&& she says i am a ahlian.

oh maybe, i gave you all an impression that i am an ahlian.

&& she say that,

i think that the whole school is afraid of me cause i am fierce.

LOL! i think this is the best joke i ever heard.

know why?

cause i do what i like,

because thats me, what for to show a different personalilty?

in front of people?

thats an act what, && to add on what you have said.

i can tell you that, is they scared of me.

not i go around asking them to scared of me.

well, if you are to say i am timid.

hello, take a mirror&& look at yourself.

if you think it was me who took your phone.

for god sake, why dont you check me on that day?

why dont you talk to me face to face?

why did you have to write or rant it all out in your pathetic blog?

like oh dear diary, this fcuker stole my phone.

she get her retribution. blah blah.

kinda lame right?

ask my friend, to tell me this.

message my boyfriend&& act like its me.

oh my god. && you want to act like you are a little angel in

secondary 3C? well, what i can say is.

i dont like my class, 3c&& including you

TEO HUIWEN.

this class is full of crap. it's true.

if you think that i am just going to rant it all out in my blog

just like you. i can tell you.

you are definetely wrong,

because, the next coming monday, i am going to

look for you, a face to face talk.

i am a ahlian? oh well, up to you.

you are such an angel; TEO HUIWEN

i am sucha DEVIL.

&& she also said something about slapping my face.

let's see. will she fcuking slap my face.

wait for my next post people.

2008-07-27T11:51:00.002+08:00

hello, back to posting again.

been busy these few days. thats why.

alright, what i am going to say here is.

i think SISTERS this word.

really really dont exist.

because they turn 1 big round and shoot back or ka jiao weis

behind each other.

thats one of the reason why i dont mix and get along with girls

rather, i find BOYS even more better.

i dont know why.

i find them more trustable.

like my brothers.

thats all.

&& back to relationship.

i dont know what has happen,

change back to the old hubby.

is a small and simple phrase.

but to me, it is a very super good thing.

but somethings just happen the way i dont want.

change back, but something remains unchanged.

i dont know what to do.

CHANGE BACK TO YOUR OLD HUBBY OKAY?

you didnt utter a word after that after you say that.

when things happen.

you just say, i wont give in as much as last time.

is this what happen to last time?

no, i dont think so.

well, got nothing much to say.

bye peeps.

2008-07-10T10:01:00.001+08:00

bi, i dont know what to say le.

i really changing all but,

you just seems like dont care dont care.

makes me really dont know what to do.

haiz, i really am confused.

tell me what to do.

i really dont know what to do.

or perhaps, you can tell me what you want to do?

mummy is in hospital.

i am like so fucking worried.

everything change.

just want a boyfriend to dote me.

cant i have it?

bi, come back will you?

2008-07-03T09:21:00.002+08:00

shit, old post gone.

something wrong with the computer.

i just posted the blog,

&& there it goes.

alright, i start over again.

hubby&& me back to normal again le.

finally after so fcuking long.

since sunday till yesterday.

lol, never really quarrel until like that before.

i guess after this quarrel,

we both notice that,

we are both important to each other.

hmm, and this 3 days or 4 days.

i have not been eating rice.

cause quarrel with him.

i just eat the veggies& the other food.

but not the rice.

just dont have much mood to eat.

&& now i am trying to lose weight.

i know its going to be hard.

but i will try! =D

going to lose weight for myself&& for bi.

hahas~~

oh ya, and hubby might be going to taiwan for 1 year.

saddening! i will be missing him lah.

&& it will be like so so so different,

without him.

like no one to talk to me during the night,

no one to hug me,

no one will be there to accompany me when i want go shopping.

no one will quarrel or talk back to me when i am bored.

no one to hit my mouth when i say stupid things.

no one to console me, when i am down.

when he is gone.

i will be like the most sad girl in the world lo.

like that, i ning yuan kena cut?

cause no him, really makes a very big difference.

it really really does.

&& mummy is sick.

really worried about her.
her stomach keeps hurting.
aunty G.K say maybe is menopause?
but i dont think so lah.
so fast menopause mah?
haiz. hope she fast fast recover !
ask her go hospital check.
guess where she went?
she went POLYCLINIC.
its like, she is so damn sick.
still have to wait for the Q.
&& best thing is no want accompany her go&&
she went work today.
daddy scold her, say dont want to live arh?
i dont know lah, because thats what meimei tell me.

hope she will recover asap.

oh ya, today me and hubby.
baobao.

hahas, really missed the feeling of hugging him lorh.

its been like 1234567890 years that i hugged him like that,

finally the feeling of love i could feel it once again.

hahas, really liked the feelings. because,

its unexplainable.

no one can make me feel this way but you.

hahas. imissyou baby.

*if i asked you to stay, will you stay because of me?*

2008-06-29T13:21:00.000+08:00

2nd blog of the day.

saw this in friendster bullentin.

find it rather nice.

GUYS cry because:

1. Girls screw them over.
2. They just got hit in the balls.
3. They're about to die.
4. Their heart is broken.
5. Because they are true men.

GIRLS: If you see a guy crying, hug
him close and hold him up as he gets
over the pain of getting kicked in the
nuts. Tell him he's not going to die,
and if he's crying over a girl, hug
him && kiss him and let him know you
won't screw him over and break his

heart like the last girl did. Guys
just want to know that our girls will
be there for us to support us when we
need them and help us get our mind off
the pain of heartbreak, getting kicked
in the balls, and knowing we're
goinggg to die.

i hope someone will really hug HIM, && tell him that,

she wont break his heart like i did.

GIRLS cry because:

1. They're sad.
2. They're scared.
3. They're nervous.
4. They're frustrated.
5. They're missing someone.

6. They're alone.
7. They have their period.
8. They're pregnant.
9. Their heart is broken.
10. They're in love.
11. Their souls have been torn.
12. They met a boy they can't have

13. They fell in love with a boy.
14. They hurt so bad inside.
15. They're mad.
16. Something bad happened.
17. Just because they feel like cryinggg.
18. You make them cry
19. You say out their secret
20. You must treat them good!

BOYS: If any girl you know is crying
and you see them, don't just stand
there and say you're sorry. Hold them
and tell them everything will be okay,
even if you have no idea what is wrong
with them, and kiss them softly, then
wipe their tears away. Girls just want

to be held and know that someone cares
about them.

2008-06-29T12:40:00.000+08:00

to the one and only guy i love;

things has changed doesnt it?

love has changed.

feelings has faded.

tears keeps dropping,

thousands of knifes has just pierce through.

&& i am left there all by myself.

you promised to be there for me all the times.

you promised you loved me , and be your last girl.

but i dont think so this will happen doesnt it?

it just seems like, you can go on better without me.

if thats the case, baby.

i wish you all the best. i am leaving you.

things will get better this way i guess.

without me to scold you or what.

there wont be anymore hurt.

that is better right?

i love you, but i dont wish to give in.

i want to be strong.

or you can say that i act strong.

up to you, its just that.

you are not you anymore.

you say you'll wait for me.

no need already i think.

cause even you were to wait.

everything will still be the same.

we already quarrel yesterday le.

quarrel le, talk finish le.

you went home, played com.

forget totally about me.

i guess this is the best thing among all.

dont you think so?

if you really care and love me.

will you forget me and neglect me?

i dont think you will.

what have i done to you?

to deserve such treatment?

do i really treat you really that bad?

my heart hurts alot.

what can i do?

feel like ranting it to people,

feel like dying.

but i cant, this guy was once my everything.

once the shoulder that i thought i could rely for the rest of my life.

once the most strength i needed.

once the listening ear that i needed the most.

but i dont think so it will happen already.

cause its all over, right?

why will things happen to me?

cried the whole night.

till my eyes swollen.

you didnt know.

felt like messaging someone to let me feel better.

but, i didnt.

because i promised you not to message boys.

till now, i didnt message anyone.

cause, iloveyou.

but its over le lah.=D

i want to live life to the fullest.

i dont want to get hurt anymore.

because my heart is really pain.

&& no one can help me.

i am really hopeless.

just let me rot to death.

slowly, i will disappear.

and slowly, i will not cry, smile.

or even have any emotion on my face.

goodbye people.

goodbye my LOVE.

i always think of you.

2008-06-12T01:07:00.000+08:00

back to blogging again.

alright, i am like so damn fucking bored.

can someone like entertain me for a moment?

well, seems like talking to some stupid walls.

hahas. anw, i am here to update what has happen lo.

on monday went out with KEAI&& BUTCHER.

went to eat the cafe cartel.

it was like so so so nevermind.

it was nice.

took pictures of the food gonna post it up.

then all the way we shop till around 7 plus.

only left me&& cassandra.

because KEAI went for her

captains ball BBQ,

then only left with us.

alright then home sweet home.

on tuesday, went to meet hubby. should be fetch him.

he blocked leave le. yeah, he can pei me!

finally lorh.

wondering what to do siah.

&& this stupid guy

have gotten his pay!@!@!@!

he spends money like water like that!

he gave me $5o to spend.

but well, i decide to keep the money.

beacause i dont want to waste money.

i want to keep for future!

=D i know its way toooo far.

but still. i want to keep mah.

he say next month he will give me $1oo!

i really scared i got tempation to use the money.

oh please. please shoo, go away!!

dont let me have the temptation.

who ever ask me withdraw money.

i make sure you get beaten up by me!

l0l, hahas. i really am bored.

oh ya forgot.

went to watch congkak wth hubby today!

its a really good show.

10/10!

then today, went to lavender to look for

BUTCHER.

hahas, then kinda quarrel with hubby.

cause he play his stupid PSP.

then dont want me! wah,

NB.

how can like that siah.

i your girlfriend leh.

stupid you!

then went to play pool.

i lost lorh.

cause kinda no mood.

then hubby quarrel with cassandra de friend.

lol, i ask him say sorry.

okay lah. he did it.

UNWILLINGLY.

then we were at staircase

me, cassandra&& bi.

then we kinda like stuck inside?

then luckily got people help us!!

then open door for hubby.

hahas! then went to tiong bahru.

took neos.

=DDD

turns out to be quite nice!!

alright. i stop here.

picture below ^^

firstly, the drinks.

KEAI's plain rice.

&& her chicken stew

cassandra pasta

my chicken cutlet.its like so big

our food.

desert, brownies

shall end with cecilia eating.

2008-06-06T21:16:00.000+08:00

well, back to blog again.

went out with hubby today!

okay i start updating from yesterday first.

i fetch him at pasir ris && guess what?

i was late again. sorry hubby.

i promise i make an effort to fetch you

&& reach there earlier then you on tuesday.

okay? promise okay?

went to his house wait for him to change.

lol, i wait for him at downstair la.

cause his yang fu they all at home.

everytime like that de.

waited for him quite long.

then after that he came,

we all went out.

to E-hub downtown east there.

guess who i saw?

i saw vanilla!

they watch kungfu panda.

while me and hubby watch congkah.

lol, when we were about to go to the theater.

the guy stopped us.

cause the ticket states that,

the movie is 4.20a.m

not p.m.

how stupid can i be.

then we change show to narnia.

hahas. the show very boring.

hubby actually fall asleep during the show.

but when the interesting part start.

wah, hubby very wide awake!

like what lurh.

after the movie we went to eat pastamania.

we sit outside, the place is nice.

but, the light there made the flies fly here and there.

then 1 fly drop inside our soup!

we told the lady to change for us!

then continue eat.

then we saw the fly on the floor.

hubby step the fly!

the whole thing is like damn funny lorh.

i kept laughing&& laughing.

but the fly didnt die!

so this time i took a video.

its really funny.

i will try my best to post up the video.

but my voice sucks cause i am sick.

sadded

after hubby killed the fly.

1 fly was sitting at hubby de shirt.

the lady behind him said,

got fly at your shirt.

then she help him make.

then i told hubby

'' the fly help his friend revenge cause you kill his friend.''

then we laugh,

not even 10 mins the fly is back again.

this time, hubby is really irritated.

cause the lady say another fly at your shirt again.

then hubby dont want eat le.

so what i want to tell you is dont go to the pastamania during the night

when the lights are on.

cause you may not know what you will swollow inside.

lol, joking.

then we cabbed back home.

then today, went out to meet hubby awhile.

eat breafast walk walk

pray his mummy&& then

off he went back&& i send him back.

so here i am back to home

&& blog.

alright night everyone.

&&hubby i miss you

2008-05-26T01:19:00.000+08:00

alright, i am back to blogging.

haiz, these few days. i dont know why,

i really feel very stress. i guess is because of my family bah.

perhaps? hostel life, i am used to it.

but, now things seems to change.

people seems to drift from me.

people are absconding.

i just hope that things will be back like last time.

will it? family? whats that?

i've changed abit didnt i?

but, why cant they just see.

rather then encouraging me, they hurt me.

they are my FAMILY.

my closest people.

yet they just dont understand me.

why is this? well, now i am inside hostel already what.

at least i made an effort to change&& study well.

why can't you all see? to you all,

izzit because i am bad, means i wont change?

well, if thats the case.

then forget it.

i dont know what else i can say.

its true. i did improve on my studies.

to me, i am already very happy already.

though, still fail. but, at least i did improve what.

didnt i? but you just dont seems to get it.

i fail means fail. i am the eldest, yet i set this kind of example to

my sister, i know you all blame me.

well, forget it.

i give up on everything perhaps.

and bi, happy 13 months anniversary.

i blog this later bah, i got no mood.

i love you my hubby.

iloveyou lots.

smooochhhhhh

2008-05-10T23:44:00.000+08:00

well, today finally saw bi outside already.

=D hahas. bi very keai lorh.

become botak already.

so cute!

well, today meet bi at his house.

i guess this is the first time i meet him&& wait for him. =D

first time i ever really go down and meet him in person

he must be very touched right bi?

but when he saw me,

he cover his face.

cause he botak.

lol, hubby.

honey wont laugh at you de! okay? cause you are my HUBBY.

in any way , you will still be my
PRINCE CHARMING.

get it? i love love love you lots.

well, today bi and me ,

went to bugis to watch shows.

what happen in vegas. lol, that show is nice,

is funny toos.

hahas. meet cassandra, camilia && joey.

hahas~ played pool.

&& train cassandra how to fight.

bought a bag finally.

hubby is buying me a bag hopefully next week!

but is too expensive.

i dont want it anymore.

i must learn to save money&& dont spent it on stupid things.

like bag, i have alot already.

why must i buy?

because thats the lastest trend.

thats all i know.

i know its stupid.

but, i really have alot of things to buy.

&& bi say he is going to pay for my rebonding.

oh my god! thats so sweet!

i really appreciate that!

iloveyou!

dont want you to spend money on me.

just save money for my rebonding.

thats all.

i love you.

we must really learn to save money le bi.

2008-04-27T15:09:00.000+08:00

Elliott Yamin Wait For You Lyrics

[Verse 1]
I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?
[Bridge]
So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be
[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Wait For You Lyrics
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you
[Verse 2]
It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.
[Bridge]
Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough
[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you
[Bridge]
So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do
[Chorus]
Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you
I'll Be Waiting

this song is for you bi.

2008-04-26T23:38:00.000+08:00

happy 1 year anniversary BABY.

wahh, s0 fast 1 year already.

dont know why, it just seems like today is just a normal day?

nothing special at all?

haiz, suddenly thought of last year de together.

we are together at 26o4o7.

19.59pm, my house downstairs.

where he asked me for stead.

LOL~! and today is also the day i broke up

with my ex-stead, 1 year.

that stupid darn idiot.

&& congrats on being my LONGEST LONGEST

BOYFRIEND!!

oh well, during this 1 year, alot of things happen to both of us.

&& people whom are close to me should know what happen

LAST TIME && NOW.

during this 1 year,

i went to GIRLS' HOME, he went to QRP.

but of course on different dates.

but of course we are still together.

hahas.

alot of ups && downs when we are together.

i hope this could last forever.

i hope we wont quarrel until BREAK or GOING to break anymore.

how i hope to gain back the trust that i have lost in you,

but, you just never made that move to understand me more.

i dont know why, i just hope you to understand me more.

is that really so difficult?

i know i am selfish&& sometimes i went too over-board.

but is you the one who pampered me till like that de.

you cant possibly throw me aside &&

ask me to change de right?

isnt that too what le?

i dont know what has been happen to me lately,

i just hope to study hard&& forget everything.

make myself busy&& numb myself.

hostel all those staff are drving me nuts.

small lil things then write in log book,

make me cut for few hours.

so sickening.

well, i know they go home everyday what.

but HELLO!

we dont go home everyday, only on saturday only.

cant you let us go home peacefully?

IRRITATING PEOPLES.

now i know why my grading wont go up no matter how good i am.

cause small lil things you all also want make until

BIG ISSUE.

thats why my garding will go down&&down.

well, its really unfair you see,

i am NOT the ONLY person who gets up late in the morning!

why only my name is INSIDE the

fcuking damn LOG BOOK!

well, when today ahma ask who woke up late too.

i didnt say, beacuse i dont want to hai them

kena cut, cause i know the feeling sucks.

&& i dont wanna be a SHOOT KIA.

i am considerate. why cant people spare a thought for me?

i know i look like a cheerful girl,

but do you people know what i want most?

forget it.

i just feel like ranting it out and make me feel better.

cause suddenly i feel like there is no one that i could share my problems

&& feelings with.

not even my BOYFRIEND.

i just feel like this few days, he keep thinking about himself.

i dont know lah, i just hope that god

will just take care my LOVES ones.

even to sacrifice my life i am also willing.

well, i got to go.

i am changing my blogskins && everything.

provided i find until nice blogskins.

2008-04-23T12:00:00.001+08:00

currently in school now,

really confuse what to do now.

other then crying i dont know what to do now.

haiz, i really am confuse.

i know i am a bad girlfriend.

well, what can i say?

cause i am a hostel girl what.

if i am not a hostel girl.

perhaps things wont turn out this way bah.

i am a xiao ah lian.

thats what people say me.

but who really knows what kind of person i am?

do anyone out there try to know me?

i dont think so perhaps?

i feel that, people around me have neglected me.

really very much,

even the guy that i love most.

i dont know why lah.

but its just the way i feel.

his feelings has change.

i dont want to step in to deep anymore.

single or attached you also dont want to care anymore.

well, thats one thing i really dont know what to say anymore.

i give up hope on everything.

fairy-tales?

what are fairy tales?

happily ever after?

i dont think so.

mermaid storys?

ALL ARE LIES.

2008-04-20T17:01:00.000+08:00

well, this few days quarrel with bi.

&& homeleave kena cut for 6 hours cause of

AUNTY RADAH a.k.a MALIKA.

stupid her say me && ahpui share 1 BED.

wa la0. best l0rh.

but ahma very good let me do punishment

then let me go home at 1.

so good.

then off i went home.

change, then went down.

was about to go find ahpui at bugis.

then bi called.

ask me go find him.

lol~!

then go find.

then he pang seh me.

wah very angry leh.

the took cab down to find cecillaKEAI

to slack.

2nd time we went out and slack.

after that met APPLE , stuart.

then followed by bi.

cause just finish his CSO.

hahas~~

love him;

then bi and i go walk walk walk.

then he went home.

sunday meet awhile then go meet mummy && meimei

buy things. so tired lo.

*yawns*

going back le.

but bi is not answering my call.

hope he call before i goes back.

take care.

&& i surely will miss you went you go army de. ILU.

2008-04-14T21:03:00.000+08:00

hello everyone!

this few days have been very sick~

haized~ dont know why lorh.

today went to see doctor.

doctor say my asthma come back already.

its like WTH cans?

&& then its seems like we arent quarreling that much like last week

how i really hope things will be like this.

hahas~ && bi is going in army on the 25!

1 day bef0re 0ur aniversary~

aww, 1 year is on sat somemore.

stupid bi, y0u want me t0 accompany me who?

not use to it lah, without your shoulders to lean on

during saturday, no hand to hold on sat.

boo hoo! why must it fall on this day?

arggg! stupid bi~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

wah, i fucking hate him lah.

everytime also like that.

keep on break promise!

what is your problem lah.

knn, y0u d0nt want talk tell me lah.

no need say what, call back call back.

in the end never call back lah.

you think what?

i nice to cheat izzit?

wa lan eh, i dont like lah.

keep say will change will change.

change lan arh

knn, pcb~!!!!!!!!

you tell me lah,

from friday to now.

monday leh.

how many day le.

stop breaking promise can not?

eh, you cannot promise dont promise lah

dont sweet talk say will call back will call back

ccb, no body teach you izzit?

you wait && see only.

i run away with people you dont come crying lah.

knn, you say what,

1 year you cant out down.

why must you do things that makes me want to put down~

this fucking relationship.

PCB. YOU ARE SUCHA GREAT BIG LIAR.

2008-04-06T08:50:00.000+08:00

bi, honey here to blog already.

hehe, g0t miss me n0t?

i bet y0u have h0r.

bi, sure miss me like what derh.

=D thats why i love him so so so much.

right huh hubby?

well, friday just came out,

actually is go && find bi de,

in the end i was late.

s0 he had to wait for me to come.

but in the end 5.15 i still at my house bus stop.

then bi ask me to wait at tampines.

then i go MRT station meet me l0rh.

miss him l0ads.

never see him so l0ng already.

last day when i see him,

is on last sunday.

long right?

then we have quarrel.

quarrel until going to break && everything.

luckily now okay already.

hmm, yesterday

bi && me went t0 watch m0vie.

shutter,

OMG that sh0w what i can say is like

completely the same as THE SHUTTER.

wtf cans?

waste bi && my money.

then went bugis shop with ahpui.

bi bought couple watch for me.

ILOVEYOU,

hehex.

smoochhh.

hmm, now going to pray my ah ma already.

bye peeps~

lastly, hubby, honey LOVE you

2008-03-29T23:18:00.000+08:00

this post is specially to ahSONG de.
dont ask me why i have changed alright?
i just feel the need of changed.
maybe you find me really very unreasonable or what.
i dont care. really.
because, y0u d0nt know i feel at all.
okay, say it in the bottom of your heart.
did you like ever think of me?
&& thought of what i am thinking?
do y0u kn0w that i am afraid y0u t0 leave me?
when just n0w, i talk t0 y0u on ph0ne && said something about
girlfriend those kind of things?
y0u c0uld actually say things like,
ya alot of girlfriend waiting for me n0w.
can y0u like imagine h0w would i
fucking feel when y0u said that ?
did y0u even notice that it was me who hanged the phone?
did y0u even n0tice
HOW FUCKING IMPORTANT YOU ARE IN MY FUCKING HEART?
perhaps no.
well, i dont know why i have this feeling,
t0 give up 0n y0u already.
TOTALLY give up on y0u.
dont ask me why ,
cause i just feel that way.
11 month just past.
i thought we could be like last time.
s0 happily, but i dont think so.
cause, people really do change.
seriously, if y0u really fall f0r s0me others girls.
dont be selfish,
just tell me.
i will just let y0u g0.
&& instead find a better guy.
there are many m0re people outside
wh0 are waiting f0r me.
because having a relationship like that.
i feel like really n0 p0int.
&& at the same time.
useless.
my heartache alot.
but, d0 anyone knows?
i seems happy today do i?
but, d0 y0u kn0w h0w i actually feel when i am with y0u?
i guess y0u d0nt?
cause y0u d0nt even n0tice me much t0day.
h0w can a relationship be stable when
there are no basic trust in it?
is not i dont want to give trust.
is, i gave you too many chance.
&& you just threw it away.
f0rget it.
perhaps , y0u are just my another past.
=D i choose to be happy
rather then t0 cry f0r y0u each fucking nights.
thats all i got to say.
&& dont bother to explain anything if you saw this post.
because thats what i got to say.

~~~

what i wanted was just a guy whom will,

PAMPER;CHERISH;TREASURE;LOVE;DOTE ME~!

2008-03-23T14:30:00.000+08:00

hello people.

i am back.

back to homeleave after absconding.

hahas~

actually i dont want to blog de.

but cause hubby wants me t0 blog.

thats why.

hehex.

thursday i went home.

met hubby.

after go home.

then friday we went to watch movie.

rule#1.

LOL~

very scary lo.

due to the sound effect as i could

predict when is it coming.

hubby sayang me.

felt s0 warm.

&& touched.

hahas.

d0nt e jealous people out there.

there is one girl in friendster who named herself as

ICY CHAN.

dont add her.

lol, go around adding guys.

stupid people.

then i act as thou i am hubby.

entertain her.

hahas.

hmm, anw hubby is also out le.

h0pe he will do his CSO properly this time round.

hahas~~

0kay st0p here.

2008-02-03T12:35:00.001+08:00

alright, i am here to bl0g again.

i dont know what has gone into me.

its just like these few days ,

i am angry f0r just a little small things.

which i dont know why i would make up such a fuss.

well, maybe as time goes people change.

but why is he changing ?

i simply hate it lah.

he claim that ,

he will dote me.

he will love me.

MORE.

in the end , he can just like that leave ,

without me.

well, i feel that ,

between us are over already perhaps.

cause , i am starting to feel insecure.

i am starting to find it stress to continue this relationship.

why is this so ?

i am puzzled too.

and i can feel that he dont makes an effort to know more

about me.

cause all he need was just a broadband line,

and a internet.

that shall be it.

then he can start his MAPLING lah , DOTING la.

i feel like this kinda of people doesnt need a

GIRLFRIEND.

cause whatever they do f0r them.

they just simply dont appreciate.

i dont know why.

and i dont understand toos.

1 day i could only meet him for 1 day which is on sat,

sunday just want him to accompany me awhile.

he can also thr0w his fcuking temper.

maybe he is just in RUSH to play his MAPLE,DOTA.

if not, he is just in RUSH to find his girlfriend.

well, this guy had once step into my life gave me lots of surprizes.

but n0w, i dont think i need these anymore.

cause the basic needs

that i want from him , he cant give me already.

so what more could i ask for ?

n0w currently we are counted as BREAK.

cause something happen yesterday.

i ask him to touch my heart again,

then i will patch with him

but, i dont think so he will.

well, i hate him.

s0 st0ry && everything shall end within here.

i guess.

haiz, i dont know what to d0 n0w,

redzuan has been asking me out since last last week,

ever since i contacted him.

n0w w0rst!

seems like he wants t0 jio me?!?!

OMG~

i am n0t ready f0r another relationship.

as i dont have trust in love anymore.

2008-02-02T21:35:00.000+08:00

well, i am back t0 bl0g~
hahas~

want t0 p0st ab0ut last week post,

as i didnt have the time t0 bl0g,

i be talking ab0ut my 9 months anniversary with

HUBBY~

t0ok l0ts 0f ph0t0~

w0nderful~

had such a great time ,

we went t0 buy 0ur new year cl0thes t0os.

had l0ts 0f sh0pping that day,

my leg were tired~

hmm, let me tell y0u what i b0ught

b0ught 2 cardigen,
1 black && 1 white.

hubby b0ught

1 black && 1 white toos.

bought couple tees

fr0m PMK.

bought 2 electric blue skinnys.

hehex , we are wearing couple fr0m t0p t0 b0tt0m .

except 0ur sh0e.

i wearing flip fl0p.

while hubby is wearing sh0es.

hahas~

bought 1 SPADE tee f0r hubby,

th0ugh he d0nt want i spend m0ney 0n him.

i still b0ught him the tee~

h0pe he likes it.

c0st me $39.20 after discount.

bought 1 dress f0r myself.

2 NEW FUTURE shorts.

black & white.

f0rget t0 menti0n ,

my aiai b0ught me a BLUE cardigen.

i love it~

thanks aiai.

i think that should be about it .

hehex.

0kay , shall be posting up pics~

ILOVEMYBOY;

0n the way t0 shopping. 0ur 9 month '' DINNER'' ph0t0-taking 1SNAP-SHOTour shopping bagsphoto-taking 2
at BK smiling*happy JACQ.funny facesigning off;JACQ

just wondering,

why must they interfer in my RELATIONSHIP.

when is MY relationship.

while , but is 0kay,

as long as i kn0w what i want && what i am doing

thats fine. ILOVEMYBOY;ahSONG

ahSONG&&JACQ

together SINCE 26o4o7

TRULY in LOVE with EACH OTHER

2008-01-13T12:38:00.000+08:00

well, birthday is coming at 2 m0re days .

well, currently i am s0 b0red at h0me.

&& that bl0ody cb ,

stills wants t0 play his fcuking

cb , no brain de stupid maple .

well, its 0kay .

i w0nt fcuking mind it anym0re.

wh0 he thinks he is ?

i SIMPLY HATE HIM~

he is very irritatings toos .

i really d0nt like him.

&& pearlynAIAI is at my h0use n0w ,

i think we shall be g0ing d0wn t0 bugis bah.

hmm , i feel very irritated lah~

ccb!!

because 0f that fcuking maple.

wahh.

steady lah ,

i d0nt kn0w why lah.

i really really really feel like

BREAKING UP.

really its true.

h0pe he will let me g0~

really , i cant stand his selfishness.

I HATE HIM!

2008-01-08T10:41:00.000+08:00

here t0 bl0g again ,

haiz , i never pr0m0te .

well, i d0nt kn0w why lah .

i felt s0 stupid~

end of post .

2008-01-06T02:10:00.000+08:00

yay~ came back fr0m h0meleave yesterday,

was s0 b0red at h0stel.

haiz , friday all C' block girls never g0 sch0ol.

in fact , wh0le gracehaven never g0 sch0ol.

cause 0f the outbreak of hand foot && m0uth disease.

fr0m the A' block.

i d0nt kn0w lah,

every0ne was s0 scared that they c0uld n0t g0 h0me.

in the end ,

TADAH~

i am still back~

=DD

well, t0day went 0ut with dearest ,hubby && me~

we meet at t0a pay0h,

cause hubby was at MCYS talking t0 miss chan.

then i took bus at 12.15 like that t0 MCYS,

cause bef0re that , hubby has a talk

in CANTOMENT COMPLEX.

dont know what SS talk.

he s0t want lurh.

ask me g0 there listen ,

lame lah, g0t time als0 d0nt want .

after that we went t0 t0a payoh && eat

after that met dearest .

actually never meet dearest de,

cause esther t0o l0ng,

dearest buay tahan,

s0 meet me l0.

hahas~

went bugis sh0pping t0day ,

i g0t 2 perfume && 1 set 0f sh0w

hubby's fav sh0w.

witch yoo hee,

he lend t0 me first,

cause i want watch first few episode.

hahas~

t0ok quite l0ts 0f pics.

g0nna upl0ad.

0h ya,

i g0ing t0 upl0ad th0se ph0t0 i took,

0n the last day 0f 2o07.

th0ugh didnt went f0r c0untd0wn,

but still i enj0yed the day~

2008-01-02T11:58:00.000+08:00

this post is f0r pe0ple wh0 are deeply into my heart .

s0 lets pray hard that y0u be inside this list,

1. ahSONGdear ; i have really appreciate y0ur

appearance in my life , th0ugh it might have been

upside down sometimes,

but still y0u still have been there f0r me.

thats why i appreciate it.

th0ugh we have l0ts 0f quarrel && misunderstanding.

but still , love is strong.

but sometimes i just couldnt stop myself fr0m,

fighting with y0u ,

i just dont know why ,

like i fight f0r what i want.

haiz , i d0nt know.

t0 me , y0u are like changing everyday~

&& like y0u are still lying t0 me ,

that makes my trust fades .

i d0nt kn0w why,

its really irritating .

2. jeslinDEAREST ; i really really l0ve y0u in my heart,

because when i first step into gracehaven,

n0b0dy seems t0 talk t0 me ,

i d0nt kn0w why.

but when y0u came back fr0m h0meleave ,

y0u kept talking t0 me .

&& y0u were the first want t0 create relationship with me inside gracehaven.

which made me very t0uched,

th0ugh i didnt sh0w h0w t0uched i feel ,

but , still i h0pe y0u can feel h0w much y0u meant t0 me.

=D 3o08o7 DEAREST FOREVER

3. eileenDEAR ; th0ugh we knew each other fr0m

l0cked up, but when i step into gracehaven we are n0t very cl0se .

till 0ne day when we were bathing y0u talk t0 me ,

t0ld me why y0u never talked much t0 me .

0nly then i kn0w .

we created DEAR on 15o9o7.

few days later after y0u have g0ne d0wn t0 2nd level.

&& we have a communication book.

inside there wr0te what we wished each 0ther.

&& 0ur heart w0rds.

h0w i wish y0u c0uld c0me back ,

&& tell me things again,

&& write in 0ur c0mmunication b00k,

it has been left empty f0r quite a l0ng time,

h0pe y0u w0uld write inside again .

4. camilliaAHPUI ; th0ugh i f0rg0t h0w i g0t this relationship with y0u ,

but , still i am very gald that i have y0u this ahpui with mE~

cause y0u will always be there t0 cheer me up,

always say ahpui, bu yao sad, yao xiao.

th0ugh y0u keep saying this w0rd,

but , i am not sick of it .

seriously .

&& remember 0ur discharge party alright ?

il0veahPUI~

5. anaTWIINIIE ; think of the nagatives side alright ?

dont sad sad de .

i && y0ur ba0bei d0nt want see like that de y0u,

lik that time we g0 k-box.

sia0 sia0 de. 0kay ?

6. pearlynAIAI ; i dont quite like y0u in the first place l0r,

cause y0u are very irritating, talk t0 debbie

y0u say i snatch her, feel like giving y0u 1 punch 0n y0ur stupid face.

but slowly find out that y0u are quite a nice girl lah,

but also very noisy~

very irritating , hahas~

anw, take care~

s0 far i 0nly think 0f these 6 0nly ,

s0 d0nt blame me ~

2008-01-01T11:43:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2oo8 everyone!!

hehex~ finally 2oo8 le ~

a brand new year~

hahas~

i hope everyone who is reading my blog

will be as happy as ever~

haiz , i am very stress~

what to do~!

i dont know what am i suppose to do .

i am very stress out~

can anyone help me?

my birthday is coming && yet ,

i have to celebrate in hostel.

i cant even spend my birthday with my loved ones.

haiz, new year is coming toos.

wonder what will happen .

will daddy && mummy go malaysia again ?

&& leave me inside hostel ?

haiz ,

really i been thinking alot .

i dont know what to do lah ,

really fucked up~

anw ,

i wish in this new year ,

eileenDEAR will come back ,

ahsongDEAR wont lie to me ,

jeslinDEAREST to be happy ,

anaTWIINIIE look through opposite way ,

pearlynAIAI mouth smaller (hahas) ,

&& every of my loved ones to be happy~

jiu okay le

&& hope DEAREST , AHPUI AIAI ,BOTH OF MY DEAR && of COURSE ME,

TO HAVE EARLY DISCHARGE~

YAY~

2007-12-30T13:21:00.000+08:00

well, seriouly i dont know

what has happen these few days ,

i am really fucking stress lahh ,

i dont even know what to do.

its really very irritating .

well, maybe going in girls home should be a better idea bah.

i dont know what else to say.

i just dont like the life i am having now.

serious speaking ,

everything has changed .

ever since i went to girls home .

i dont know why ,

maybe is because ,

the earth is turning && people are changing.

thou they say they didnt change,

but only people around them would notice that they have changed,

but what i can say is ,

i admit that i have changed,

its seriously not a bad idea~

cause i change for my own good.

some of them said i change,

some say i never change .

well , i dont know lah,

its really very irritating lah ,

i dont know what to say anymore.

just feel that ,

both our feelings has fade le.

not the same anymore lah ,

everyday must quarrel want .

i just dont know why .

play also can play until angry .

i dont know lah ,

its damn fucking irritating .

&& whenever we quarrel at public

he will confirm use force want.

i dont know f0r fuck.

but what i guess is

maybe he wants to let people know that ,

he very sat ,

please lah ,

sat lei ,

dont fcuking disgrace my face lah

you want then throw your own face.

dont drag me inside && throw face toos ~

tell y0u .

i dont need a boyfriend like you

who only knows how to beat girlfriend.

&& after beating the girlfriend,

make her soft heart && say sorry

please , what done has done .

so no need say sorry .

as i dont need the sorry ,

thanks ~

2007-12-29T22:01:00.000+08:00

haiz ,

0day went 0ut with

twiiniiex && hubby.

well, actually g0in t0 cycle derh,

in the end .

never g0 cycle .

cause raining .

then wen tin arcade,

played DDR with ana .

while hubby played PARA-PARA.

hahas ~

had lots of fun .

but my knee is hurting me alot ,

&& seriously i dont know why.

its just freaking hurts.

i am missing him now~

i dont know~

h0pes he feels that.

0kay,

shall end here.

2007-12-26T19:03:00.000+08:00

hmm , this week had exams l0.

had t0 study well ,

then can pr0m0te t0 sec4 .

h0pe i can pr0m0te.

haiz , this few days really BORED .

cant g0 0ut .

really sickening la ~~

i really very b0red la ,

haiz , t0m0rr0w still g0t exam ~

hehex~~

iLOVEyou BI!

happy 8 month aniversary ,

we have been through al0t .

l0ts 0f quarelling ,

l0ts 0f fights ,

l0ts of misunderstanding .

but , still .

i feel like y0u && me

arent that cl0se anymore .

d0nt kn0w lah.

yesterday had quarrel with daddy .

he is so lame la .

i cant stand it lah .

d0nt wish t0 say anym0re .

anyway ,

i want watch TV le!

2007-12-21T23:08:00.000+08:00

alright back to bl0g,

hmm ,

t0day went back to hostel.

f0r s0me event thingy ,

bi waited f0r me 0utside,

he s0 cute lah~

&& today m0rning i was s0 damn dulan.

d0nt want say anym0re,

but what i can say is ,

" lies ,is what i kn0w && what i see && hear

fr0m YOU!

i d0nt kn0w why y0u lied t0 me .

but ,maybe y0u lied cause y0u had reas0n .

i didnt wanted t0 care .

but , i just n0 secure with y0u anym0re perhaps ?

well , the reas0n i put that nick 0n MSN is because,

i really think that my feelings had fade f0r y0u .

but y0u say is cause 0f misunderstanding .

but what i feel is

i guess 0ur feelings had faded f0r each other ?

cause is n0t same anym0re.

y0u have y0ur life ,

i had mine own .

i d0nt kn0w whats g0ing thru y0ur w0rld .

i d0nt kn0w if y0u h0ng 0ther girl or what .

i really cant say anything,

cause

i am in hostel.

thats all i can say .

its all fr0m the bott0m 0f my heart .

th0u y0u said that ,

y0u didnt hong .

but i dont believe.

its true ,

really , f0rget it . "

i staying at home till 26 .

but , he d0nt have the time f0r me .

i hate it ~!

thats all bah.

&& he hasnt call me till n0w.

really , can see that ,

feelings changed.

&& i fading away fr0m him.

2007-12-16T10:02:00.000+08:00

well , these few weeks had l0tsa fun ~

l0ve it s0 muchh~~

on MONDAY ,

went 0ut with hubby t0 walk walk .

then , watch movie

THEGOLDENCOMPASS.

after m0vie ,

we saw RABBIT&&JIERUI .

then slack with them t0gether~

il0vethem~

hahas~~

then TUESDAY ,

acutually g0ing t0 kbox

with ana ,

in the end g0t kettling .

hehex .

dearest was there to0s .

she s0 cute ~

il0veher l0ts~

then after kettling we went t0 walk .

hahas~ after that jiu g0 h0me l0 .

=DD

then 0n WEDNESDAY ,

went kbox ,

very happy that ,

dear && ana

g0t back the relationship .

hehex~

we were super high that day .

&& we drank alchohol.

ana drank ,

calsberg or what i forg0t le .

while hubby && me drank

tequlia POP~

n0 kick de .

then t0ok l0sta pic .

then after that walk ar0und .

hehex~

0n THURSDAY ,

i f0rg0t i do 0n tuesday already .

but t0 what hubby say ,

he say we went t0 tm && cs t0 walkwalk .

s0 take it we walk walk bah.

then 0n FRIDAY ,

we all g0

TAKASHIMAYAH

as ana g0t v0cher buy things .

she bought 1 jacket & 1 slipper~

hahas~

then after that she came my h0use t0 t0n .

hehex .

funfun~!

0h ya . && friday was my DADDY birthday ,

i b0ught a cake f0r him .

hahas ~~

on SATURDAY ,

we went t0 drink .

0mg ,

i s0 seh l0 .

luckily ana && hubby there .

if n0t hongkan .

after i wake up le ,

hubby turn to drunk .

LOL~!

he very difficult t0 wake up l0 .

after that , me && hubby quarrel .

then he injured his hand .

then me && ana bring him t0 hospital .

=DDD

see his hand .

see ~

signing off .

2007-12-10T00:56:00.000+08:00

well , till t0day i realised

that all my cl0se br0thers ,

really d0 care ab0ut me && ahSONG.

they really d0 care ,

as they are n0t like some other people .

get close t0 us just because of

FAME && BACKING .

i really d0 treasure them l0ts .

people like ,

derrick , victor , roy , wai leong , hamster

to me , they are gems .

precious ones .

each one of them has their own g0od things .

th0u some have the ahBENGs kinda face,

but deep inside .

only cl0se pe0ple w0uld

understand h0w they feel .

knowing them , is 1 of the greatest thing,

i had in earth .

i would never regret knowing them .

my WONDERFUL br0thers .

i really d0 l0ve them && treasure them

if anyone were too touch them .

i wont mind to sacrifice my everything .

as long as they are save ,

i wont mind .

th0u they kept irritating me ,

keep making n0ise,

but after all ,

they still care ab0ut me ,

about my exam && everything .

they my BEST br0thers ~

but , i am a BAD sista .

s0rry .

did things that was f0olish ,

&& ended up in HOSTEL .

s0rry .

h0pe we all will stay t0gether .

as o7 never die ~

0ur o7 ahHAIS'

memories .

2007-11-26T20:44:00.000+08:00

guess what ?

i really think thr0ugh le .

i d0nt want t0 be s0 depending 0n guys .

really , i d0nt want .

i just feel that i am too depending 0n guys .

thats why , when he didnt catch up with me ,

i cry , this is NOT ME ~

fr0m t0day 0nwards i will st0p ,

st0p depending 0n HIM~

i d0nt kn0w why .

its just ,

i d0nt kn0w h0w t0 say ~

can s0meb0dy help me please ?

i am really very heartbr0kenn ~

i d0nt wish t0 be s0 weak ~

i am n0t like this .

i am n0t i use t0 be like n0w .

small matter cry ,

small matter ask pe0ple f0r help .

i am n0t ,

i am a girl, wh0 is much m0re stronger

then wh0 y0u all think i am

0kay ?

&& like what i said ,

he w0nt keep t0 his pr0mise ,

he say will c0me find me ,

well , he didnt ~

4get it .

i am n0t g0ing t0 trust him anym0re

i guess i w0nt be p0sting bl0g t0o 0ften ~

cause i d0nt want t0 be

p0sting up my feelings .

feel s0 awkward .

or maybe even cl0sing up my blog .

thanks =D

HATRED BELONGS TO THE DARK .

EMO SIDE OF HER.

=DD

2007-11-26T19:33:00.000+08:00

happy 7th m0nth anniversary

hubby ~

we g0ne thru really al0t .

even the eve 0f 0ur 7th m0nth als0 still quarreling ~

l0l ~

t0day accompained hubby t0 MCYS,

waited n0t quite l0ng la~

then s0methings happen during the waiting .

LOL~!

t0ld hubby ,

he very dulan la ~

then i just walked away ~

i cant believe that he just stand there .

didnt f0llow me .

i cried al0ng the way ~

fuck it la ~

i hate t0 cry f0r b0ys ~

makes me l0ok like i am a weakling ~

fuck it ~!

but it just came out like that ,

sometimes i just feel that ,

my l0ve f0r him is n0t STRONG

can say like ,

my feelings f0r him has faded ?

aiya , i d0nt kn0w la .

i feel that his feelings t0wards me

als0 fade le .

aiya , i d0nt kn0w la ~

i just feel like

i cant breathe pr0perly ~

h0w i h0pe everything can g0 back t0 n0rmal ,

h0w i really wish.

but is impossible .

t0day , went t0 watched ENCHANTED

can say that it was quite a g0od catch.

=DDD

enj0yed m0st part 0f the sh0w .

well , after m0vie hubby make me laugh

like a sia0 zhabor ,

then g0 h0me l0r .

after that , reached h0me ,

mummy ask me n0t t0 g0 0ut later .

as she is g0in t0 h0stel f0r the pr0gramme

then i said 0kay, as i went 0ut t0day .

LOL~!

then asked hubby t0 c0me and find me pei wo ,

guess what he say ?

kk later then i g0 find y0u ~

then i g0 h0me .

by the time ,

what time le ?

i ask y0u c0me is t0 ask y0u pei me .

i just ask f0r a little bit m0re time .

als0 cannot ?

4get it , i am still quarreling with him ~

IHATEHIM~

but still happy 7th month anniversary .

2007-11-25T19:24:00.000+08:00

well , i d0nt kn0w why .

i just keep quarreling with hubby ~

i seriously d0nt kn0w why ,

haiz ,

small matter we can quarrel until like what like that .

seriously , i really d0nt kn0w what is up 0n my mind .

it just ..

i d0nt kn0w what t0 say seriously~

well , i g0t t0 end here la .

i really am confuse ab0ut what has

happen t0 me .

bye all ~

2007-11-19T21:26:00.000+08:00

well , t0day went t0 c0urt with dear .

sentence is OUT~

n0 m0re waiting ,

n0 m0re crying ~

hahas~

he g0t pr0bation ,

h0pe that he will ha0 ha0 zu0 ren uh ?

then w0nt g0 back t0 c0urt .

then i w0nt cry f0r y0u anym0re ~

anw , guess what ?

dear is beside me n0w ,

in lan sh0p .

he playing his STUPID dota~

then here i am blogging my lame BLOG

l0ve him l0ts la ~

he n0w als0 n0t a free man le ~

wahahas~

same with me ,

but only i am a

HOSTEL girl

while he is just a

PROBATIONER~

cute uh ?

&& guess what ?

the year && month which i discharge ,

he als0 finish his pr0bation

cute uh ?

t0gether free girl && free man

hahas~~

oh ya , i heard fr0m

ah pui (camilla)

that, DEAR (eileen), teck ping && cassandra

abscond fr0m h0stel .

its like what la ~~

dear , y0u said y0u w0uld n0t zuo pai de

in the end what y0u d0 ?

lie t0 me ,

i hate y0u la ~

i kn0w is stress in h0stel .

but , we can overcome it t0gether what .

running away is n0t a idea l0 .

h0stel is CONFIRM better then

GIRLS' HOME okay ?

just c0me back s0on alright ?

the 0ther 2 i just c0uldnt care ab0ut them .

but DEAR , just faster c0me back surrender .

i am sure they f0rgive y0u de ~

&& i am missing my dearest l0ts la ~

i felt as th0u i pang seh her ~

i am sorry DEAREST .

but i just need t0 attend my boyfriend court ~

n0w that i kn0w he is fine ~

i am happy le~

&& aiai , i am really very disappointed in y0u la ~

kena caught 2 gum && 1 packet of cig .

then hai y0ur homeleave kena cut .

very nice izzit ?

i d0nt think is very nice la ~

i d0nt kn0w la ~

i just want t0 tell all my LOVES ones ~

*please take care of y0urself ,

dont f0llow the step that i take last time .

its really n0t w0rth it de~

okay ?

take plenty of cares *

0ne m0re thing , which i f0rg0t t0 say is ,

mummy br0ught me a new phone ~

wah , s0 happy la ~

but the thing is ,

the ph0ne very c0mplicated~

i see le als0 stress ~

hahas ,

but my CLEVER de dear help me make until

n0t s0 c0nfusing ~

il0vey0u ~

0kay la ~

shall end here t0day ~~

=DDD

tata peeps ~

2007-11-17T00:54:00.001+08:00

3oth aug ~ *LOVED*

ilovey0u ~

MY LAOGONG~~

bully me huh ?

me && dear

ilovemyself~

l0vey0u toos ~

act punk ?

2 sept ~ aiai's

me && aiai

never let y0u g0 ~

2007-11-16T20:19:00.000+08:00

i am back le ~

reach home first thing ,

called dear .

n0 resp0nd .

as in handph0ne 0ff ,

i think he is working .

s0 left him a msg .

h0pe he calls me back after w0rk .

after that called dearest .

she s0 sh0ck la ~~

went 0ut with my parent .

went t0 eat AJISAN ~

i think spell wr0ng uh ?

went t0 buy make-up .

actually want g0 print ph0t0 ~

but then , never bring MMC .

called dear , still n0 reply .

until he called my h0use ,

he still don't know that i am 0n

HOMELEAVE .

he is at chalet now .

enjoy right ?

i wish t0 g0 to0s ,

but i can't .

LOL~!

FREEDOM LOST ~

have t0 wait f0r 22 mths later ~

tomorrow wil be going out with dear~

meeting him in downtown east

as his friend g0t chalet there~

haiz~

tomorrow he g0t w0rk ,

at 6.3o ,

d0nt want g0 h0me early als0

b0bian~

imissyou la dear~

c0me meet me lei ~

i am sick~

kays la .

posting up pics ~~~

2007-11-11T16:20:00.000+08:00

LOL~!

s0rry pe0ple .

this week i wont be posting .

i postphone it .

as i am in a rush of time .

t0day is dear birthday ~!

iloveyou ~!!

HAPPY 18th birthday uh ??

must be more sensible okay ?

la0p0 always here f0r y0u der ~!!

n0 matter what .

anw , this week is a really buzy week .

a really hectic week .

&& really happening ~

hahas ~

i be back t0 p0st s0on .

i pr0mise 0kay .

take care~

2007-11-03T20:21:00.000+08:00

well , i really g0t n0 idea

whats g0ing 0n ar0und me .

pe0ple around me are sh0wing me fake face

a really fake face .

i g0t n0 idea whats there pr0blem in there mind .

haiz , me && dear just quarrel n0t l0ng ag0 .

but n0w 0kay le .

well , i h0pe after this incident ,

we will have more trust .

n0 m0re STUPID quarrels anymore .

0kay an0t ?

what past are past .

but if the past REPEATS .

there w0nt be anym0re chance le .

well , yesterday went out with dear && dearest .

had lotsa fun ,

took lots of pic , mostly of my pic ,

all" zao geng " .

so i can only put up after editing .

0nly dear && dearest get to see th0se pics !

hahas !!

next week wil be dear birthday le

s0 excited ! s0 i cannot zuo pai le !

i want dear to have a memorable birthday .

but i dont know h0w .

i want call all his friend come .

but well , i dont know who to start .

i guess have to start from korkor that side ?

as dear played with them since young ?

haiz , i dont know .

hmmm , have to start planning le wor !

&& i going have a re-test wor ,

cause i retain mah

then , i not sure lah ,

i hope i pass go up sec 4 !!

* god bless me alright ? *

dear arh , because of y0u i

f0rget the past things that y0u did .

but dont fcuking take me f0r granted .
cause i am n0t th0se kinda CHEAP girls .

0kay ? iloveyou ~

due to DEAREST de hardworkingness ,

i got the edited pics le .

see ! nice right ?

t0gether we walk && never let go of

each other .

jacq. DEAREST && jeslin DEAREST

the PROMISE that we gave to
EACH OTHER

d0nt care me , i am just simply mad && childish .

PEEK-A-BOOK

holding on to our RELATIONSHIP .

hope it last !!

2007-10-14T08:54:00.000+08:00

well, yesterday went out with mum .

la0g0ng , twiiniiex , sista , dearest .

quite fun la . but in the end .

only me , la0g0ng , dearest and mummy only .

cause sista and twiiniiex got things to do .

so we went out first ,

i bought scrapbook and alotsa things .

hahas~!

doing something in the scrapbook .

&& guess what ?

me and la0g0ng de half year coming .

dont know why .

i feel like

wahh , so fast !!

LOL~!

but dont worry .

we are still going on very very strong .

2007-10-13T13:27:00.000+08:00

wahh , its like so fcuked up ~

i hate it okay ?

fcuk it .

want shoot to social worker ,

go shoot la .

go buy more bullet la okay ?

kns, i hate HER la

i hate my parent lah .

they just fcuking dont understand la ,

1 week i can only see my boyfriend

1 time .

LISTEN 1 time .

then , now she dont even want me to

meet him .

wah , she think what ?

i got alot of time izzit ?

she think what ?

she marrying my boyfriend izzit ?

wahh , i cannot choose who i wan be with izzit ?

irritate lei .

argg ~~ i want to rant it out somewhere

maybe ,

die is a better way ?

arggggg

2007-10-07T00:05:00.000+08:00

well, i am back le .

actually back very long le .

but no time to post .

so today then post lo .

hahas ~

glad that my la0g0ng .

he never do any foolish thing .

well , at least .

i stil have him by my side && he have me by his side .

ILOVEHIM la ~

well , now currently staying at hostel .

&& the best best thing is ,

i go back school le

i admit la , i go back school only want see my friend

but , overall i got study okay

&& i NEVER play time .

i am sucha guai kia .

teehee ~

well , twiiniiex && sky break le

i got lots of things to say !

but yet .

i choose to be mute .

as relationship is theirs ,

i have my la0g0ng .

thats enough le~

but still i would like to see them together

although is impossible .

but , as long as twiiniiex ,

JIAYOU

jiu can le wad ~

h0pe you 2 still can continue

but , love cant force .

thats one thing .

so what is going to happen to you two

DEPENDS on 2 of YOU

ILOVEMY

BABYBOY

2007-07-23T11:42:00.000+08:00

hmm , i am about going to bath already
then meet ana ,
then she will send me in . =D
well , my stead is not with me .
i dont know where is he .
what is he doing .

well , i guess he dont wants to come .
&& dont bear to see me going .
haiz , never mind la .
i just regreted that
yesterday didnt enjoy the time with him
SORRY !

but i miss him ,
how i hope he can appear next to me now!
sorry dear , i didnt mean to cry .
but i just simply cant take it .
during these few mths or maybe years
life may be tough for you .
but still you must be strong .
&& wait for me .
no matter how long ,
dont do sily thing .

from your : stupid donkey

2007-07-23T00:02:00.000+08:00

today was actually my last day ,
but trip was postponed.
so well ,
i had funny today obvious ,
but quarrel with dear .

&& guess wad ,
sometimes i just dont know wad
he really wants .
well , its his fault ,
but he can like push the blame on me .
like dotz !

&& when me , ana , sky n dear
reached bus stop .
sky n ana when back home.
n i told my dear ,
i going home already ,
you go home luh .

so i went home ,
but didnt when straight home .
i dont wish to say here . =D
then around 11.3o i reached home.

then he called me on the phone .
he was crying ,
okay , i know this is my fault .
but , i asked him where he is .
he dont wan to say .
&& the most good thing is
HE HANG MY PHONE =D

so i made up my mind .
&& hope that you leave me alone ,
that my wish ,
dont ask me stay .
cause is your own doing,
so accept it .

2007-07-21T04:44:00.000+08:00

when I'm down and all alone ,
when nothing seems to matter ,
when i lose my hope ,
when I'm sad and all confused .

when it all gets turned around and 'round
i can't seem to reach the solid ground
when everything I've believed in seems untrue
all i have to do

[chorus]
is think of you
i think of you n it's all gone
like you chase away the storm
making it all okay
i think of you
i think of you and I'm strong
and i know i can go on
It's like you set me free
when life get the best of me
i just think of you

now i know what love means
and whatever life may get hold for me
through the fire
through the rain i believe

cause there is nothing i can't bear
knowing that you be there
if i fall i won't break
through it all I'll make it through
cause all i have to do

[chorus]
and when i think I'm all alone
i can't see the way to go
lost in the rain of my own tears
to wash away the pains n fears

[chorus]
for the good times and the bad times
i just think of you
cause you know you get the best of me
i just think of you

artist : tata young
tittle : i think of you

2007-07-21T03:47:00.000+08:00

hmm ,
new blog , new tings
wad to write in a new entry ?
i have no idea in mind .
just want to tell you guys ,
that these few mths ,
i cant blog much .
cause ,
i be going on a trip .
only some of my close wants
knows about it .
cause i do not want some
OTHERS KPO-S
to know where my whereabouts .
anyway , you all take care
when i am not around ok?
especially , my la0g0ng .
i am very worried for him .

ana && sky
please help me take care of my dear
dont let him anyhow .
help me take care of him ,
if he is naughty .
when i come back i will beat him .
hahas ! u 2 take care also huh .
take good care of my god-son uh !

la0g0ng arh ,
you arh , better dont do silly tings uh
better guai guai when i go for my holidays uh ,
if not no present for you when i come back uh .
got time help me train maple la .
hmm ,
anyway ,
IMISSYOU && ILOVEYOU
SMOOCHH