tomorrow is valentine's day.

but i doubt everything wont be same.

how i hope that this year would be a memorable one.

but, so sad to say that.

even tommorrow how hard i tried,

you still wont come back.

cause, simple. feelings is not there anymore.

its takes 2 hands to clap.

so, i cannot be selfish i have to let him go.

even i really do love him alot.

but what troubles me the most is,

i have to act like it doesnt even HURT.

cause, people will look at me and say.

omg, jacq. cry i dont want to be like that.

to people, i am strong jacq.

only i can scold people.

people cannot scold me.

only i bully people,

people cannot bully me.

right? even closest brother hj&vic saw me cry,

they choose to look away and pretend they never saw.

cause they know how i feel.

thanks lots bros.

and no matter how hurt it is i am going to stay strong.

iloveyou, that what i am going to say for the last time.

if things could turn back, i wont choose to hurt you and love you whole-heartly only.

but now, it wont. =D

in a relationship cannot have a 3 party.

there must be always one to sacrifise.

this time, i will.

iloveyou, so i let you go with the girl you like.

i hope tommorrow you will enjoy.

alright, this will be the last time i post in this blog.

i am going to change my link.

=D will update you guys.

Love ends @2:04 PM

after so long, i am still alone.

no one knows what i am thinking.

even my best buddies.

sometimes i wonder, should i really give up?

or should i try and perservere?

no one tells me what to do,

inside my heart, is all tearing apart.

perhaps, after a long period of time it will heal.

but, i dont want to give up.

it may seems easy to fall for other people.

but, not me.

i am not those kind of people.

i am using the very last strength of breath i have,

to fight it out.

on valenines day.

will be my last shot,

if it still wont touched you,

i will give up.

1 year 9 months and going to 1 year 1o months.

Love ends @9:38 AM

this is our memories.

i dont know if we still have a chance together.

but i guess, we probably wont have this chance together anymore.

i dont know why, i thought it be easy to forget you.

but, now i notice that, its difficult.

alot of people have broke up this few days.

i still hope i can have you back.

but, do i still have this last chance to let you love me back?

and go back to what we still used to be?

valentines day is around the corner.

i guess, i have no one to celebrate with anymore.

my mind and everything is all mixed up.

all confused.

i hope everything can turn back to what it all used to be.

playing on the bus,

listening song together.

beat each other.

fun times like those time.

but not those quarreling times.

if time can change back,

i will change to become a better girlfriend.

but, i guess, it wont anymore?

Love ends @2:51 PM

i hate people to take away things that i have

and things i love.

but, just some reason.. people always change.

hahas, just like earth.

revolving round and around.

non-stop.

so people will change.

therefor, i decided.

to change back what i used to be.

heh..

Love ends @12:02 PM

如果有一天　
我回到從前
回到最原始的我
　 你是否會覺得我不錯
如果有一天
　我離你遙遠
不能再和你相約
　 你是否會發覺我已經說再見
當你的眼睛瞇著笑
　當你喝可樂當你吵
我想對你好
　你從來不知道
　 想你想你
　也能成為嗜好
當你說今天的煩惱
　當你說夜深你睡不著
我想對你說
　卻害怕都說錯
　 好喜歡你　
知不知道 如果有一天
　夢想都實現 回憶都成了永遠　
你是否還會記得今天 如果有一天
　我們都發覺
原來什麼都可以　
我們是否還會停留在這裡
當你的眼睛瞇著笑　
當你喝可樂當你吵
我想對你好　你從來不知道　
想你想你　
也能成為嗜好 當你說今天的煩惱　
當你說夜深你睡不著 我想對你說
　卻害怕都說錯　 好喜歡你
　知不知道 也許空虛讓我想得太多　
也許該回到被窩 夢裡會相遇　
就毫不猶豫　
大聲的說我要說 當你的眼睛瞇著笑　
當你喝可樂當你吵 我想對你好　
你從來不知道　 想你想你　
也能成為嗜好 啦～　啦～ 我想對你說　
卻害怕都說錯　 好喜歡你　
知不知道 啦～　啦～

dang ni- cyndi wang xin ling

Love ends @2:08 PM

i guess, as times goes.

perhaps people feeling will change too.

i dont know, i am confused at what i am doing now.

studying is my first pirority i know.

i know, but. he is also my first pirority.

he is the main reason that i really study for.

but now, i dont know what i am doing.

lol, i feel very stress.

haized, teachers said i can make it for O level.

but, can i really make up to the standard?

i feel very stupid at times.

like, teacher explain so many times.

i still dont understand,

then until i see teacher face abit dulan.

then pretend okay, i understand le teacher.

i feel abit fake, i dont know why.

haized, then as for relationship?

keep kena cheated by boyfriend.

be it boyfriend or ex boyfriend.

i guess, i am forever this stupid.

only clever at doing stupid things.

like, beat people.

scold people.

right? hahas, really very funny.

Love ends @1:30 PM

long time since i post already.

angeline and co said my blog is dead.

lol, today i quarrelled with him.

lol, everything sound so fcuking ridiculous lorh,

i dotn know what he want to do lah.

knn, crazy.

this week perhaps going to lao yu sheng

with hongjie, victor and co.

lol.. post up pictures soon.

Love ends @8:01 PM