i hate people to take away things that i have

and things i love.

but, just some reason.. people always change.

hahas, just like earth.

revolving round and around.

non-stop.

so people will change.

therefor, i decided.

to change back what i used to be.

heh..

Love ends @12:02 PM

如果有一天　
我回到從前
回到最原始的我
　 你是否會覺得我不錯
如果有一天
　我離你遙遠
不能再和你相約
　 你是否會發覺我已經說再見
當你的眼睛瞇著笑
　當你喝可樂當你吵
我想對你好
　你從來不知道
　 想你想你
　也能成為嗜好
當你說今天的煩惱
　當你說夜深你睡不著
我想對你說
　卻害怕都說錯
　 好喜歡你　
知不知道 如果有一天
　夢想都實現 回憶都成了永遠　
你是否還會記得今天 如果有一天
　我們都發覺
原來什麼都可以　
我們是否還會停留在這裡
當你的眼睛瞇著笑　
當你喝可樂當你吵
我想對你好　你從來不知道　
想你想你　
也能成為嗜好 當你說今天的煩惱　
當你說夜深你睡不著 我想對你說
　卻害怕都說錯　 好喜歡你
　知不知道 也許空虛讓我想得太多　
也許該回到被窩 夢裡會相遇　
就毫不猶豫　
大聲的說我要說 當你的眼睛瞇著笑　
當你喝可樂當你吵 我想對你好　
你從來不知道　 想你想你　
也能成為嗜好 啦～　啦～ 我想對你說　
卻害怕都說錯　 好喜歡你　
知不知道 啦～　啦～

dang ni- cyndi wang xin ling

Love ends @2:08 PM

i guess, as times goes.

perhaps people feeling will change too.

i dont know, i am confused at what i am doing now.

studying is my first pirority i know.

i know, but. he is also my first pirority.

he is the main reason that i really study for.

but now, i dont know what i am doing.

lol, i feel very stress.

haized, teachers said i can make it for O level.

but, can i really make up to the standard?

i feel very stupid at times.

like, teacher explain so many times.

i still dont understand,

then until i see teacher face abit dulan.

then pretend okay, i understand le teacher.

i feel abit fake, i dont know why.

haized, then as for relationship?

keep kena cheated by boyfriend.

be it boyfriend or ex boyfriend.

i guess, i am forever this stupid.

only clever at doing stupid things.

like, beat people.

scold people.

right? hahas, really very funny.

Love ends @1:30 PM

long time since i post already.

angeline and co said my blog is dead.

lol, today i quarrelled with him.

lol, everything sound so fcuking ridiculous lorh,

i dotn know what he want to do lah.

knn, crazy.

this week perhaps going to lao yu sheng

with hongjie, victor and co.

lol.. post up pictures soon.

Love ends @8:01 PM

'' It doesn't matter who dumped who or why.

Whenever we see an ex with another girl,

it always bothers us.

Not because we're not over you,

but because we know that we used to be that girl. ''

quoted from angeline's blog.

i find this quite interesting&&true.

okay, i dont know what i am thinking.

&& i am very vexed up with myself.

i know i just cant let go.

but, i inisisted on letting it go.

well, okay nothing more.

Love ends @3:06 PM

i dont know what more to say anymore.

this relationship.

lol, crazy. really crazy.

read this month de teenage.

i am abit afraid of what the horoscope says.

haized, i dont know. now i am speechless.

i guess, now, we both wont contact each other.

&& tml i can confirm,

he wont find or call me.

&& defineltely i am not in the wrong.

so i wont find or call him.

=D haized.

Love ends @10:11 AM

back to blogging!

4 periods of home econs, i am like so cold lorh.

well, today hongjie, victor and co never come school.

only lau came school to pei me.

so good lorh.

hope they come school faster,

if not no one pei me study,

lau pei me all the way today,

later going recess le.

&&bibi is not feeling well.

&&he's stomach pain again.

i guess this week, have to bring him or drag him to see the doc's.

stupid him right?

nevermind, as a girlfriend must make sure he's alright.

unlike him, dont care about me one!

Love ends @10:12 AM

currently having my f&n.

well, its like so scary now.

as, i just got the 'N' level F&N coursework.

&& date due is august.

but miss tan wants us to hand in by july.

maybe to you all, like wah, 6 months also cannot finish meh?

so exagerating, but coursework need to do alot of thing leh.

i really need to buck up!

i cannot afford to lose any lesson,

today i fall asleep in chinese class awhile.

alright, back to my coursework.

i got to go!

Love ends @10:00 AM

currently i am at cousin house,

as my cousin is getting married.

lol, feel happy for her you know,

like 1 of my cousin is married,

1 more member in the family. so heartwarming.

lol, alright, i am here to blog about yesterday.

yesterday, bibi celebrated my birthday for me!

its was like so so so fun lah.

i was really really touched by what he did for me.

super duper duper touched.

there were like 20 plus people over there.

its was like one of my most memorable birthday la.

classmates were there, brothers were there, my friends are there too!

seriously, i am happy

but, in between there are somethings that make me no mood,

which i dont which to say out,

but, after that.

everything is fine!

when they open the cake,

i was like, OMG the cake is so pretty.

i will post up the birthday cake soon.

then after that, talked cock awhile,

slacked around, then went home.

&& currently, i am looking for a phone.

a phone which can last me for quite a time.

but, i dont know what phone to choose,

and plus i am only interested in NOKIA phone.

so, anyone have any idea?

lol, okay, perhaps for now.

i end here?

okay, i be back real soon!

Love ends @11:50 AM

okay, well i am currently i am at school.

having my F&N.

well, schools not fun as i thought today.

i dont know why, everythings that i do today.

makes me remind of HIM.

just can't forget he lied to me, seriously.

dont know whats happening to this relationship.

yesterday had a girls talk with jiemin&&cassandra.

talked mostly about relationship problems.

well, my relationship problem most jialat.

feel like crying, yesterday threw the blue bear one side.

&& hugged ariel&&triton to sleep.

woke up today, wondering will he come fetch me outside?

or maybe he realised his mistake?

but, he didn't come.

okay, i admit i am abit dissapointed.

because he once promise me,

even we quarrel he will also be there to fetch me.

but, never.

today was a moody day for me.

no mood to do anything.

feelings not right, every where i went seems to have memories with him.

very difficult, went to school with

fiona, tze hui&&sangetha took bus 854

all the way to bedok.

well, okay.

i shall end here&& continue to work on my coursework.

JACQ. is gonna work hard for this year for her 'N' levels.

&& to win everyone result.

&&everyone.

1o more days to my BIRTHDAY!

Love ends @10:20 AM

okay, guess what?

he lied to me.

yes, he lied AGAIN. cause he promise to meet.

but end up? playing dota like one kind.

funniest part? he said is his brother friend using his account to play,

thats so freaking funny.

made me wake up at 7.3o blast his phone.

till 11 plus then give up.

cause i saw he was playing dota.

seriously, i cant take it anymore.

since games is more important, fine then.

i got nothing to say then.

i am really mad at him, but yet. i am very cool down.

perhaps this time, my heart really had enough of waiting for him and so on.

i dont know how to describe my mixed feelings now.

birthday is another 11 more days.

hope everyone could help me to countdown.

but, i dont think i be celebrating my birthday.

cause i find it no more meaning.

=/

Love ends @11:28 AM

back to blogging!

today went shopping with boyf. to shop for new year clothes.

bought 1 dress that cost me $49.

which is quite pretty lah, like princess haha~

then a top from topshop. which cost me $49 also.

now, i am left with 1 more suit, a skirt, 2 pair of shoes.

1 bag&& the guess bag that bibi owe me!

lol, hahas~
but i doubt he will get it for me soon,

actually, i want to get it faster cause, i scared later no more stock.

i will cry like hell mans!

hahas, sibei sian lorh.

&& bibi caught another bear for me le.

you know my ariel&&triton.

lol, think only my hostel people&&bibi know only.

i got another blue one!

bibi said treat it as him.

lol, got 3 bear bear le.

wondering, why dont have 4 bear, then we make a whole family le.

ariel, triton,hubby&&honey.

hahas~

shall update the photo soon..

=/

Love ends @10:11 PM

back for homeleave again.

guess what? before coming back to gracehaven.

uncle.raymond was hopping mad!

omg, that is so scary, though he did like make jokes or something.

but, he way he say things very scary.

okay, so guess what?

he gave us warnings, like, i start from the first one.

1st, smoking cause from the effect of 1 of jan alot of place cant smoke.

so, he warned those smokers, saying that if there is ever someone caught smoking or

given warning, his or her homeleave will be cut for 1 month.

luckily for me!!

2nd, attire, appropriate hairstyle, no ankle socks and so on.

3rd, homeleave no going out with gracehaven people.

4th, bully of new girls or any bullying things. as uncle raymond say he take this

SERIOUSLY, anyone who found bullying of anyone in any block,

he will not hestiate to breach that person.

sound scary right?

okay, guess what? me&&boyf. quarrel again, this time is not i over-sensitive.

is he really too much, i suddenly find out that,

perhaps, we are not meant for each other.

you know what? he can even call me a lok kuay.

which is like cheap prosititue infront of alot of people.

how will you feel if your boyf. calls you that?

infront of the public& your friends?

seriously, i dont understand.

&& the things he does, make me feel like i am not wanted in this relationship.

like, i dont know what to say.

perhaps only he will have the answer.

i really very confuse,

can we really last?

please let me feel it can you ?

birthday is coming, 13 more days.

i hope to get my guess bag for my birthday present, but i dont think so.

=/

Love ends @6:48 PM