well, seriouly i dont know

what has happen these few days ,

i am really fucking stress lahh ,

i dont even know what to do.

its really very irritating .

well, maybe going in girls home should be a better idea bah.

i dont know what else to say.

i just dont like the life i am having now.

serious speaking ,

everything has changed .

ever since i went to girls home .

i dont know why ,

maybe is because ,

the earth is turning && people are changing.

thou they say they didnt change,

but only people around them would notice that they have changed,

but what i can say is ,

i admit that i have changed,

its seriously not a bad idea~

cause i change for my own good.

some of them said i change,

some say i never change .

well , i dont know lah,

its really very irritating lah ,

i dont know what to say anymore.

just feel that ,

both our feelings has fade le.

not the same anymore lah ,

everyday must quarrel want .

i just dont know why .

play also can play until angry .

i dont know lah ,

its damn fucking irritating .

&& whenever we quarrel at public

he will confirm use force want.

i dont know f0r fuck.

but what i guess is

maybe he wants to let people know that ,

he very sat ,

please lah ,

sat lei ,

dont fcuking disgrace my face lah

you want then throw your own face.

dont drag me inside && throw face toos ~

tell y0u .

i dont need a boyfriend like you

who only knows how to beat girlfriend.

&& after beating the girlfriend,

make her soft heart && say sorry

please , what done has done .

so no need say sorry .

as i dont need the sorry ,

thanks ~

Love ends @1:21 PM

haiz ,

0day went 0ut with

twiiniiex && hubby.

well, actually g0in t0 cycle derh,

in the end .

never g0 cycle .

cause raining .

then wen tin arcade,

played DDR with ana .

while hubby played PARA-PARA.

hahas ~

had lots of fun .

but my knee is hurting me alot ,

&& seriously i dont know why.

its just freaking hurts.

i am missing him now~

i dont know~

h0pes he feels that.

0kay,

shall end here.

Love ends @10:01 PM

hmm , this week had exams l0.

had t0 study well ,

then can pr0m0te t0 sec4 .

h0pe i can pr0m0te.

haiz , this few days really BORED .

cant g0 0ut .

really sickening la ~~

i really very b0red la ,

haiz , t0m0rr0w still g0t exam ~

hehex~~

iLOVEyou BI!

happy 8 month aniversary ,

we have been through al0t .

l0ts 0f quarelling ,

l0ts 0f fights ,

l0ts of misunderstanding .

but , still .

i feel like y0u && me

arent that cl0se anymore .

d0nt kn0w lah.

yesterday had quarrel with daddy .

he is so lame la .

i cant stand it lah .

d0nt wish t0 say anym0re .

anyway ,

i want watch TV le!

Love ends @7:03 PM

alright back to bl0g,

hmm ,

t0day went back to hostel.

f0r s0me event thingy ,

bi waited f0r me 0utside,

he s0 cute lah~

&& today m0rning i was s0 damn dulan.

d0nt want say anym0re,

but what i can say is ,

" lies ,is what i kn0w && what i see && hear

fr0m YOU!

i d0nt kn0w why y0u lied t0 me .

but ,maybe y0u lied cause y0u had reas0n .

i didnt wanted t0 care .

but , i just n0 secure with y0u anym0re perhaps ?

well , the reas0n i put that nick 0n MSN is because,

i really think that my feelings had fade f0r y0u .

but y0u say is cause 0f misunderstanding .

but what i feel is

i guess 0ur feelings had faded f0r each other ?

cause is n0t same anym0re.

y0u have y0ur life ,

i had mine own .

i d0nt kn0w whats g0ing thru y0ur w0rld .

i d0nt kn0w if y0u h0ng 0ther girl or what .

i really cant say anything,

cause

i am in hostel.

thats all i can say .

its all fr0m the bott0m 0f my heart .

th0u y0u said that ,

y0u didnt hong .

but i dont believe.

its true ,

really , f0rget it . "

i staying at home till 26 .

but , he d0nt have the time f0r me .

i hate it ~!

thats all bah.

&& he hasnt call me till n0w.

really , can see that ,

feelings changed.

&& i fading away fr0m him.

Love ends @11:08 PM

l0ve it s0 muchh~~

on MONDAY ,

went 0ut with hubby t0 walk walk .

then , watch movie

THEGOLDENCOMPASS.

after m0vie ,

we saw RABBIT&&JIERUI .

then slack with them t0gether~

il0vethem~

hahas~~

then TUESDAY ,

acutually g0ing t0 kbox

with ana ,

in the end g0t kettling .

hehex .

dearest was there to0s .

she s0 cute ~

il0veher l0ts~

then after kettling we went t0 walk .

hahas~ after that jiu g0 h0me l0 .

=DD

then 0n WEDNESDAY ,

went kbox ,

very happy that ,

dear && ana

g0t back the relationship .

hehex~

we were super high that day .

&& we drank alchohol.

ana drank ,

calsberg or what i forg0t le .

while hubby && me drank

tequlia POP~

n0 kick de .

=(

then t0ok l0sta pic .

then after that walk ar0und .

hehex~

0n THURSDAY ,

i f0rg0t i do 0n tuesday already .

but t0 what hubby say ,

he say we went t0 tm && cs t0 walkwalk .

s0 take it we walk walk bah.

then 0n FRIDAY ,

we all g0

TAKASHIMAYAH

as ana g0t v0cher buy things .

she bought 1 jacket & 1 slipper~

hahas~

then after that she came my h0use t0 t0n .

hehex .

funfun~!

0h ya . && friday was my DADDY birthday ,

i b0ught a cake f0r him .

hahas ~~

on SATURDAY ,

we went t0 drink .

0mg ,

i s0 seh l0 .

luckily ana && hubby there .

if n0t hongkan .

after i wake up le ,

hubby turn to drunk .

LOL~!

he very difficult t0 wake up l0 .

after that , me && hubby quarrel .

then he injured his hand .

then me && ana bring him t0 hospital .

=DDD

Love ends @10:02 AM

well , till t0day i realised

that all my cl0se br0thers ,

really d0 care ab0ut me && ahSONG.

they really d0 care ,

as they are n0t like some other people .

get close t0 us just because of

FAME && BACKING .

i really d0 treasure them l0ts .

people like ,

derrick , victor , roy , wai leong , hamster

to me , they are gems .

precious ones .

each one of them has their own g0od things .

th0u some have the ahBENGs kinda face,

but deep inside .

only cl0se pe0ple w0uld

understand h0w they feel .

knowing them , is 1 of the greatest thing,

i had in earth .

i would never regret knowing them .

my WONDERFUL br0thers .

i really d0 l0ve them && treasure them

if anyone were too touch them .

i wont mind to sacrifice my everything .

as long as they are save ,

i wont mind .

th0u they kept irritating me ,

keep making n0ise,

but after all ,

they still care ab0ut me ,

about my exam && everything .

they my BEST br0thers ~

but , i am a BAD sista .

s0rry .

did things that was f0olish ,

&& ended up in HOSTEL .

s0rry .

h0pe we all will stay t0gether .

as o7 never die ~

0ur o7 ahHAIS'

memories .

Love ends @12:56 AM